Hello there!
girlz and boyz, pretty women and lovely man!
I hope you are doing good!
Well, for my part, im doing great
Come and join me on the big matteress, ive made some tea to keep us warm under our blanket
Update number one
I've work a lot to found other website to work on and i'm glad i've been accepted in 3 of those i've choosed. One i really like for the concept is mygirlfund.com. Its a really neat website. The concept is: girl can earn money for multiple reason. Because they answer message from boys, because they chat with them, do webcam show, send picture or video. Also, they have contest like: if you can send me the best picture of "whatever" i'll give you 20$(the price is choose by the person who throw the contest it can be 5$ to 500$ (maybe more hehe)). It's nice, cos i was thinking about that some days ago, like: does a website can pay me to send some message to someone? Well, it happens that yes!
Also, you can be paid just because guys want to see you achieving your goal. Isn't that so sweet?! ^^
Also, i've applied to 3 other webcam site. Those are from USA and ive heard they are good to make money cant wait to have money *rwar*!
Update number two!
I'm thinking about learning spanish. I want to be able to talk with people when i'll have to go in chile to see my lover Szasry. And also, if i want to travel in other country where they talk only spanish. Also, spanish is a pretty language, very sensual and i love sensuality ^^
Other language i want to learn is Sanskrit, deutch and Islandic. Iove those language for their strenght or meaningfull. Sanskrit feel like a lot of powerful knowledge. Deutch sound like power and strenght of mind. Islandic sound like elves, mysteries and magic.
Update three
Tonight my lover Parallelus told me that: i've learn to love with you. i've learn what is love. And im really experiencing that with you. You are my soulmate. I want to share my life with you and always stay with you. I love you.
Wow... just wow.
Update for The Ethical Slut book.
What is jealousy
We cannot ask this question too often. What is jealousy to you? Does jealousy really exist, and is it what we think it is? When we choose to confront the feeling of jealousy, rather than run away from it, we can see more clearly what jealousy truly is for each of us. Jealousy is not an emotion. It can show up as grief or rage, hatred or self-loathing--jealousy is an umbrella word that covers the wide range of emotions we might feel when our partners make sexual connection with somebody else.
Jealousy may be an expression of insecurity, fear of rejection, fear of abandonment, feeling left out, feeling not good enough, feeling inadequate, feeling awful. Your jealousy may be based in territoriality, or in competitiveness, or insome other emotion that's clamoring to be heard under jealous racket in your brain. Sometimes it may show up as blind screaming rage--being blind can make it very difficult to see.
(...)
Jealousy is often the mask worn by the most difficult inner conflict you have going on right now, a conflict that's crying out to be resolved and you don't even know it. Because it's rooted so deeply, it can be incredibly difficult to stay aware when jealousy peeks over the horizon: we twist and turn and writhe in our attempts to not feel it. This is when your emotions are most likely to bring you to grief--when you believe that you need to avoid feeling them at any cost.
One way to not-feel a feeling is to project it onto your partner. Projection is a psychological defense that involves trying to move a painful feeling outside yourself by running your emotional movie on someone else, as if that person were a screen for your fears and fantasies and not human being. It may be that this is the only real definition of jealousy: it's the experience of projecting one's uncomfortable feelings onto one's partner.
But here's some good news. If you recognize yourself in any of this. then some part of you has decided that you are strong enough to acknowledge the under lying emotion, and that means you're in an excellent position to do some healing right now. Use your jealousy as a signpost:"work on this feeling here!" Take a class, join a group, find a god therapist, start practicing meditation--go to work on yourself. You have a golden opportunity, so make the most of it. You could get a whole lot of bang for your buck if you do the work that's presenting itself now: heal old wounds, open up new possibilities, gain health and freedom from fear...and somewhere in there, almost as a bonus, you get to grasp your sexual freedom as well.
---p.111/112/113
So i know, it was a big "quote" from the book but.. its really fascinating to me cos i really understand why i was so jealous before and why im still jealous for some reason sometimes. So i thought it could be helpful for somebody else!
Pictures
So, i hope you enjoyed the tea. I want to cuddle a little, do you mind to join me?
See you soon hopefully dear friends, lovers and strangers!
Tea, polyamory and butterfly
girlz and boyz, pretty women and lovely man!
I hope you are doing good!
Well, for my part, im doing great
Come and join me on the big matteress, ive made some tea to keep us warm under our blanket
Update number one
I've work a lot to found other website to work on and i'm glad i've been accepted in 3 of those i've choosed. One i really like for the concept is mygirlfund.com. Its a really neat website. The concept is: girl can earn money for multiple reason. Because they answer message from boys, because they chat with them, do webcam show, send picture or video. Also, they have contest like: if you can send me the best picture of "whatever" i'll give you 20$(the price is choose by the person who throw the contest it can be 5$ to 500$ (maybe more hehe)). It's nice, cos i was thinking about that some days ago, like: does a website can pay me to send some message to someone? Well, it happens that yes!
Also, you can be paid just because guys want to see you achieving your goal. Isn't that so sweet?! ^^
Also, i've applied to 3 other webcam site. Those are from USA and ive heard they are good to make money
cant wait to have money *rwar*!
Update number two!
I'm thinking about learning spanish. I want to be able to talk with people when i'll have to go in chile to see my lover Szasry. And also, if i want to travel in other country where they talk only spanish. Also, spanish is a pretty language, very sensual and i love sensuality ^^
Other language i want to learn is Sanskrit, deutch and Islandic. Iove those language for their strenght or meaningfull. Sanskrit feel like a lot of powerful knowledge. Deutch sound like power and strenght of mind. Islandic sound like elves, mysteries and magic.
Update three
Tonight my lover Parallelus told me that: i've learn to love with you. i've learn what is love. And im really experiencing that with you. You are my soulmate. I want to share my life with you and always stay with you. I love you.
Wow... just wow.
Update for The Ethical Slut book.
What is jealousy
We cannot ask this question too often. What is jealousy to you? Does jealousy really exist, and is it what we think it is? When we choose to confront the feeling of jealousy, rather than run away from it, we can see more clearly what jealousy truly is for each of us. Jealousy is not an emotion. It can show up as grief or rage, hatred or self-loathing--jealousy is an umbrella word that covers the wide range of emotions we might feel when our partners make sexual connection with somebody else.
Jealousy may be an expression of insecurity, fear of rejection, fear of abandonment, feeling left out, feeling not good enough, feeling inadequate, feeling awful. Your jealousy may be based in territoriality, or in competitiveness, or insome other emotion that's clamoring to be heard under jealous racket in your brain. Sometimes it may show up as blind screaming rage--being blind can make it very difficult to see.
(...)
Jealousy is often the mask worn by the most difficult inner conflict you have going on right now, a conflict that's crying out to be resolved and you don't even know it. Because it's rooted so deeply, it can be incredibly difficult to stay aware when jealousy peeks over the horizon: we twist and turn and writhe in our attempts to not feel it. This is when your emotions are most likely to bring you to grief--when you believe that you need to avoid feeling them at any cost.
One way to not-feel a feeling is to project it onto your partner. Projection is a psychological defense that involves trying to move a painful feeling outside yourself by running your emotional movie on someone else, as if that person were a screen for your fears and fantasies and not human being. It may be that this is the only real definition of jealousy: it's the experience of projecting one's uncomfortable feelings onto one's partner.
But here's some good news. If you recognize yourself in any of this. then some part of you has decided that you are strong enough to acknowledge the under lying emotion, and that means you're in an excellent position to do some healing right now. Use your jealousy as a signpost:"work on this feeling here!" Take a class, join a group, find a god therapist, start practicing meditation--go to work on yourself. You have a golden opportunity, so make the most of it. You could get a whole lot of bang for your buck if you do the work that's presenting itself now: heal old wounds, open up new possibilities, gain health and freedom from fear...and somewhere in there, almost as a bonus, you get to grasp your sexual freedom as well.
---p.111/112/113
So i know, it was a big "quote" from the book but.. its really fascinating to me cos i really understand why i was so jealous before and why im still jealous for some reason sometimes. So i thought it could be helpful for somebody else!
Pictures
So, i hope you enjoyed the tea. I want to cuddle a little, do you mind to join me?
See you soon hopefully dear friends, lovers and strangers!
Tea, polyamory and butterfly
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Tea and cuddles ? sounds good to me ! Take care !
I love you.