takoda

The girl I've been talking to has been ignoring me, but not fully. She blames her phone for never contacting me.

I'm done, I found out I'm not the only guy in her life, and she barely talks to me, so I don't want to be the guy she falls back on if the other guy doesn't work out. Always telling me she'll let me know when she has time for me, but weeks will go by before I get a hello.

I'm sick of being such a 'sweet guy' what happen to the ass hole that I use to be.

Older people, play games, afraid I'm going to be the one who hurts them again, I see how they've been hurt before and I try to reassure them I won't be that type of man. I can care and love them, I know what a broken heart is too, I can cook you dinner and hold you. But they don't want someone so giving, they want someone that will eventually hurt them again. Afraid when I have the look of love in my eyes. Make me feel like a boy again with all your rejection, what don't I have that your last ass hole had? I thought I was a premium package standing on my own two feet.

Younger people just get lost in the partying and have no attention to give me caught up in something thats not there chancing the fast life. Jealousy is there sickness, drugs are there weakness, can't they see I'm the smart exist? Caught up with destroying themselves thinking it's the right way to be. Looking at me with lust but all I see is what makes them weak.

People my age are out getting married.

Spent a year on here and couldn't find barely a friend to talk to let alone someone to be with.

What did I do wrong, why when I was at my low I was so strong, and now that I'm high, I can't find anyone near by.

Just wanted someone to love, someone to grow with, care and be there for.

But now.. I closing the door to my heart,.