sweetladytex16

of course it's not weird

of course

& I suspect,
there's a lot more like us
than the other way around

You are making 'unique' sound like a bad thing. I didn't get my career going until after I was 30. I still haven't gotten a social life together. Maybe I'll work on that when I get into a retirement center. I don't think that there is anything wrong with having feelings like you do. It's a normal part of figuring ourselves out. Some people go through life doing lots of things mindlessly. You, at least, are thinking. Our society likes to ostracize people who don't fit a particular range of 'normalcy'. Have you looked into any spiritual guidance? I wouldn't recommend anything western, but there may be some eastern things out there to help you feel more at peace with the universe. Have you taken some personality assessments to see what things your type are generally drawn to or try to avoid? That may help you negotiate life, and possibly pathways to change, assuming you'd rather change than grow comfortable with who you are today. Lots of ways to look at it. Take your time. Work on it with a professional when you can. {hug}