Awwww I hope you get to feeling better, hun! *hugs* Never ever use suicide as a resort. In my opinion all that does is give satisfaction to those who made you feel that way. We don't want that, do we? Do not let them win the fight. Be strong. Keep smiling. Good luck with the court thing as well. I hope some justice comes from it. Remember, patience is a virtue and good things come to those who wait. I know, I know. I sound all cliche, but if it makes you smile, the all is good!
Stay strong.