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Saturday Aug 06, 2005

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Please forgive my pain killer induced rambling, consider that the warning label!!!

Love should give you butterflys, but not make you feel like your drowning. Love should be able to sit in silence listening to crickets. Love should be able to sit face to face w/ no boundaries. Love should be vaulnerable. Love should be trust, even if you are scared shitless.

I once though I was in love. Maybe I was. And then I though I would never ever love again. Actually, I thought that for years. (mother to child love excluded, platonic love excluded)


I think I spent way to many years in a situation that convinced me love was something horrible. That it was about gut wrenching pain, or had to be all consuming. It used to be I couldn't live without this, now I think it may be, this could be part of what makes me smile for the rest of my life.

It's not about passion. Though that's nice. It's not about control. It's not even about agreeing w/ each other about everything/anything. I don't know what it's about, But I kind of think I might be rewriting that part of my brain slowly. And I kind of think, it will be a very strange journey.
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thesinner:
Sorry to hear about your back.....

I don't think there is many things harder than to love after getting hurt...
Aug 6, 2005
ragefilledmuffin:
I'm sure this isn't much consolation, but I really believe that those loves that turn out to not really be love are very important because we learn from them and appreciate real love when we find it. I had one and after him, I didn't even want to love anyone else again because I didn't want to go thru all that crap again. But then I met my now boyfriend and I let myself be vulnerable. Good luck with moving forward.
Aug 6, 2005

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