Gorgeous, don't ever worry about me. If you were to die I could finaly go full Goth Hop. Probably get away with getting my own vulture and writing raps involving only the word black.
Listen to this (I suggest starting with episode 5):
First of all, I am glad that you are a survivor. That your cancer was detected and removed in time, and I pray that it will always be for you a thing of the past, and not something that comes back to haunt you again. Though I hardly know I am proud you for exposing your vaulnerability and confronting your fears in a public way so that others might benefit from it.
I kind of taks a middle road between you and your friend. There is a genetic heart condition in my family that has already killed two of my generation and three from my fathers generation as well as my grandfather. I do not know if I have it and I do not want to know. However I go in every couple years to get testing. The results go right into my file without me seeing them and I am only told if there needs to be a significant change in lifestyle or if I need to begin taking something. I eat healthy and stay active and for me, for now, that is enough. I would rather not know if there is a specific deadline with destiny. We will all die. It is a part of the human experience to live in the uncertainty of when.
I can understand where your friend is coming from, i think its a very easy thing to say though when you have never really been seriously ill. Personally im just not very brave with things like that, the idea of opperations and injections and needles and what have you scares me more than i care to mention, so i would assume she was saying those things more out of fear than any real conviction.
I guess you have to be in a position where you can see the end of your life coming to truely appreciate life for what it is, fleeting!
Haha id assume specialist means out of my league, i will be happy with average ^^
And from both points of view your experiences are going to be influenced by your own experiences, and im sure if she had gone through what you had she would think differently so i totally understand your anger, i bet its very frustrating. x
With a lot of disease and illness, early diagnosis and treatment is so important. So nobody should be complacent. I know it's so easy when you're young to think it doesn't happen to you. I didn't think things would happen to me and boy was I wrong.
Yeah I'm on meds for the long haul. This thing will never go away but then if it wasn't for medical science being as it is today I wouldn't be here.
I think that having this particular outlook on life is both a blessing and a curse You're allowed to be miserable about it and angry about it.
including 2 dollar martinis at a pub near here that was the first to open in this cowtown 75 years ago when alcohol prohibition ended. they are having a party sunday with music from every decade back to the 1930s.
i'm gonna put on a pin striped suit and fedora, spats, no doubt
I think your friend is possibly living in denial. It's entirely different to not want to know if you believe you are (at current) a healthy person, but as soon as she feels ill, she'd be straight off to the docs trying to find out.
Anyway, no you do not come across as a miserable git, you've made your mesage pretty clear on this one
Is it ignorance or is it fear? For some knowing is a greater fear than not knowing. To confront the possibility of death, is for some, a more terrifying thought than the actual process of death. I'd argue your friend is scared rather than ignorant. I could be wrong, but, I think there's a high possibility she's afraid and that leads to the denial.
What you did to confront and conquer this potential fear, is, to me extremely brave and courageous and you deserve all that life has ahead. Enjoy it and have fun
Love your blog. Attitude is SO much of part of things - what we believe, how we think, what we choose to focus on, etc. Staying positive, hard as it may be at times, can be amazingly helpful to our overall well-being. Even smiling (aside from increasing your face-value ) can have physiological effects.
The twilight books are amazing, very addicting. Once you start reading them, you will blast right through the series, they are inpossible to put down. I have read the series multiple times haha.
You're allowed to be miserable about it and angry about it. 
) can have physiological effects.
Listen to this (I suggest starting with episode 5):
http://www.comedy.org.uk/podcasts/as_it_occurs_to_me/
Already missing you (lame). At least we have Super Mario Bros complexed plot to review and consider. Will call you later after some rehearsing.