spiderbaby

so things are getting easier. im getting used to waking up on my own now... being drunk and taking care of myself... staying at home because he's out with his friends.
of corse i still get upset occasionally, but im not getting angry anymore.. so thats always a plus.
i said i wanna gonna take a step back this weekend and have a quiet one... that didnt happen. usually when i say things like that i stick to them, but i havent been able to stick to anything lately. infact ive been doing the very opposite to everything i say im going to do.
i ended up going out and getting absolutely rotten drunk on thursday, went and saw a workmates band play... well.. ahh.. i caught the last song. they started earlier then expected. it wasnt really my kind of music.. kinda like the crap they play on the OC.
friday pretty much did the same thing, saw a workmates band play... then ventured into the valley to see another gig... 6 ft. hick...they were fucking awsome.. best band.
last night i went to the alex with a mate who's going over the uk soon. i was drunk before i even left home... so by the time i had a few drinks there.... just messy.
ahh... anyways... my head hurts.. update later.