People are inherently lazy, so that's probably why they don't organize or try to hang more often...they're probably leaning back and letting you do all the work! I used to be in the same boat there. The sad thing is that I found if I stopped making the effort in some cases, the friends of mine would just flake out. Not cause they didn't want to hang with me, but because they were just inherently flakey! Good luck with the move - hopefully it doesn't rain! I was just watching Goodfellas on Lifetime. It didn't seem to fit their usual type of programming...very odd. As for what I'd change about myself, first it would be to lose my beer gut, second it would be to procrastinate less with regard to my artwork.
The one major thing I'd change about myself is to be more disciplined.
I used to feel like that a lot, especially in high school; people liked me OK but I never felt like I fit in either. Just cultivate the things you like to do yourself, and it will pass. (And since you have the advantage of being hot, it will pass for you more quickly. )
Mindless, hey, that's me! Uh.............thing I would change about myself..........probably that my weight fluctuates between around 170 and 200 like very six months, and I can't stop it. I'll lose weight, then gain it right back, and no matter how many times I try to keep it off it comes right back. So yeah, I wish I could keep my weight the same. Which would result in a more positive body image, which would result in more confidence, which would hopefully result in more dates, which would result in a steady relationship, which would result in marriage, which would result in two kids, which would result in stress, which would result in a divorce, which would result in a alcohol dependency, which would result in a ruined liver, which would result in my death........you know what? Just stop that at keeping the weight off. Yeah.
if i could change something about myself i think i would either take away my anxiety problems or at least be able to accpet them as a normal part of me. i really wish i could do that, but it's so hard sometimes.
I'd like to be less selfish... either that or magically become a really responsible, organized worker who never procrastinates.
I get paranoid a lot about people wanting to hang around me, but it mostly turns out to be in my head. so my unsolicited advice = try not to worry bout it.
have you ever noticed that on lifetime people fake their own deaths a lot
It sucks when you have to put forth all the effort in a friendship. I don't know about you guys, but it makes me feel desperate. I've gotten rid of most of those lazy friends Not worth my time.
What I would change: I would go back into the womb and get more of my mother's genes and less of my father's. I love the man, but why did I have to get the depressed gene, the chunky gene, AND the hairy gene??? (damn Italian ancestry...)
I would like to change my usual procrastination. I am always like 2 years late on stuff (like deciding to finish school, picking a career path,...)
I don't have any friends anymore....just people who call me or e-mail me when they need something. Yeah, it's hella depressing, but that's when I spend way too much time online. Oh gawd, maybe I want to change the fact that I am a geek!
I can't watch lifetime. The women may always win, but you have to watch them get beat up, swindled, raped, and everything else before they do. I know that's life, but !!!
golden girls was the shit, though. Who's your favorite?
my vernacular.........an my radiator.
on more suplle note, i wouldnt change a thing, fate made me this way for reason right edipus?
sorry your feeling down, if your up to it , there a bad ass event tonight in hollyweird!
Even with friends that I have been friends with for YEARS, it still feels the same (same as in as you described aboved), with only one or two exceptions. The friend that has been my friend the longest (since kindergarten) still feels that way even. In fact, all of the 15ish years we have been friends, it wasn't until I stopped going to church (which he is still a follower of) that suddenly he is calling me for a change occasionally. Sadly, his ideas for "activities" is really just stuff trying to get me to go to church again.
paranoia! fuckin sucks im sure the voices would fuck off if i got rid that!
oh a not bein such a pussy-io!
oh and some more social skills!
might aswell add dear santa to the top so he can get workin for next year!
but fuck me . . . .
dont be get down on urself lady i dont know u loads but . .
oh i can add sucks at sayin stuff to me list!
. . . . dont know how to say it . . . . so . . . . huggle!
oh and havin to make an effort to hang out with peeps . . . . snap!
'im not afraid of feeling
and i'm not afraid of trying
i'm just afraid losing . . . . '
(not sure why but soz if inappropriate)
People always need people.. it's in our nature.. As much as we may hate it sometimes (espically if we're introverts) it's a part of who we are (think breathing...)
Something I'd change about myself is to take better care of me. To eat right and excercise becuase it makes me feel better and to go exploring and fall in love and such. To not give into my introverted ness as way to escape a damn good time... yea. that's all.
) 
The Golden Girls always scared me.