..maybe this is a cry for help
feeling a bit lonely tonight, maybe its the weather,but i am getting the feeling that im not really welcome anywhere. i dont know, people have never really called me to do stuff, i am the one that has to make the effort and when i do come around it is to a lukewarm response...sigh, i thought i was okay on my own, but i realize that i need people as i always have. i hate that.
but, i could be over-dramatizing everything like i tend to do. im going over in my head the last few nights and realizing that im full of shit even as i type this entry. but, i still have to make a concious effort to hang out with people when it seems like it should come natuarlly. i dont know...
i am moving tomorrow, whcih will probably suck, seeing how it is oh so drizzley and miserable outside. i guess a little rain never hurt, but its the nasty winter type where you just want to curl up in your bad, drink hot chocolate and watch lifetime original movies...yeah i said it...what? golden girls also kicks ass.
mindless quesiton of the day:
what is one major thing you would change about yourself?
feeling a bit lonely tonight, maybe its the weather,but i am getting the feeling that im not really welcome anywhere. i dont know, people have never really called me to do stuff, i am the one that has to make the effort and when i do come around it is to a lukewarm response...sigh, i thought i was okay on my own, but i realize that i need people as i always have. i hate that.
but, i could be over-dramatizing everything like i tend to do. im going over in my head the last few nights and realizing that im full of shit even as i type this entry. but, i still have to make a concious effort to hang out with people when it seems like it should come natuarlly. i dont know...
i am moving tomorrow, whcih will probably suck, seeing how it is oh so drizzley and miserable outside. i guess a little rain never hurt, but its the nasty winter type where you just want to curl up in your bad, drink hot chocolate and watch lifetime original movies...yeah i said it...what? golden girls also kicks ass.
mindless quesiton of the day:
what is one major thing you would change about yourself?
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oh a not bein such a pussy-io!
oh and some more social skills!
might aswell add dear santa to the top so he can get workin for next year!
but fuck me . . . .
dont be get down on urself lady i dont know u loads but . .
oh i can add sucks at sayin stuff to me list!
. . . . dont know how to say it . . . . so . . . . huggle!
oh and havin to make an effort to hang out with peeps . . . . snap!
'im not afraid of feeling
and i'm not afraid of trying
i'm just afraid losing . . . . '
(not sure why but soz if inappropriate)
Something I'd change about myself is to take better care of me. To eat right and excercise becuase it makes me feel better and to go exploring and fall in love and such. To not give into my introverted ness as way to escape a damn good time... yea. that's all.
~Figment