Wow it's been 3 months since my last blog so I thought id catch every one up on what's been going on with my life.
First off I feel so fa@king emo right now. I feel so emo I want to grow half of my hair out and shave the rest off and die it black. Why am I always just a friend? But never the boy friend. I have so many beautiful female friend. but that's all they are friend. I do love them all in one way or another. But that is all they will ever be is just friends. How am I suppose to be able to talk and flirt with girls I barley know, if the ones I do get upset every time I say something halfway flirtatious towards them? What the hell is that going to do to my self esteem? IV finally got to a point where I'm pretty happy with my self image. I just need to work on coming out of my shell. Haw do I do that when every time I try to someone puts me down? I mean I truly do believe that I am an attractive guy I don't have zits, I don't have a huge forehead, my teeth are white and strata, I keep myself groomed, not only that but I don't have kids, I'm not in debt, I don't beet on women, iv never been arrested, no warrants no criminal record and I am funny as hell.. God dam it I'm a grate catch!!!!! I see my friend all around be starting serous relationship. And tear all younger then me.. WTF??
Any ways that's enough of that,,, sorry for being so dam emo on ya but I had to get that off my chest. I finally got a car. It runs grate. It's nothing fancy.. But I'm whetting in till I'm at least 30 to get something rely nice. But it is low on gas so that's a plus.
I went a couple of nerd conventions.. a.k.a megacon, and the f.x con. That was fun to see those nerds dressed up all nerdy and stuff. I got to meet the guy that played zander on Buffy the vampire slayer he was cool I even asked hem a nerdy question. 'If he was going to be ash in the evil dead remake' he said he'd love to but hasn't heard anything about it. Dam I'm nerdy also saw the chick from dead like me and Tommy form the power rangers YAAAAAAAA!!
All my friends form Indiana that moved to FL, moved away L so now I'm all alone wooo is me.. I'm so emo. But I thank it is for the best for them.. They might have not been reedy for a huge change such as this.
My mother had a hart attack last month. This was truly scary. I'm not trying to put her business out tear, but she truly need to take better care of herself. She had the bariatric surgery, which did wonders for her. But now she is over eating and the food that she is eating is not healthy.. I know I'm being a little hypocritical. But I do work a gym. Which I thank if I had never gotten this job id probably be 350lb right now. I had to retrain myself on how to eat, because I was never taught right when I was younger. But I do wish she would take better care of herself.
Another thing that was brought to my attention this week by one of my employees. Apparently I am racist? This was a complete surprise to me considering 2 of my best friends are black, and my x-gf is black. Not to mention none of my staff is white? but I'm glad it was brought to my attention. Otherwise I would have never known. So I tolled hem his opinion didn't count and to get back out there and pick that cottonor id call immigration and get hem sent back to Africa. What? He is from Africa he is truly African, not African American , but African I'm still going to hell thou..
I can't what to go to school I'm just so third of working every dam day.. I what to go out and have fun not have to worry about being to work at 9am rather being to class at 6am?? O well that is about it for this installment of me blog! Tune in next month for another existing advancer! Or in 3 more months. Depending on how lazy I am.
As always piece love and masturbation
I'm out! (No homo)
First off I feel so fa@king emo right now. I feel so emo I want to grow half of my hair out and shave the rest off and die it black. Why am I always just a friend? But never the boy friend. I have so many beautiful female friend. but that's all they are friend. I do love them all in one way or another. But that is all they will ever be is just friends. How am I suppose to be able to talk and flirt with girls I barley know, if the ones I do get upset every time I say something halfway flirtatious towards them? What the hell is that going to do to my self esteem? IV finally got to a point where I'm pretty happy with my self image. I just need to work on coming out of my shell. Haw do I do that when every time I try to someone puts me down? I mean I truly do believe that I am an attractive guy I don't have zits, I don't have a huge forehead, my teeth are white and strata, I keep myself groomed, not only that but I don't have kids, I'm not in debt, I don't beet on women, iv never been arrested, no warrants no criminal record and I am funny as hell.. God dam it I'm a grate catch!!!!! I see my friend all around be starting serous relationship. And tear all younger then me.. WTF??
Any ways that's enough of that,,, sorry for being so dam emo on ya but I had to get that off my chest. I finally got a car. It runs grate. It's nothing fancy.. But I'm whetting in till I'm at least 30 to get something rely nice. But it is low on gas so that's a plus.
I went a couple of nerd conventions.. a.k.a megacon, and the f.x con. That was fun to see those nerds dressed up all nerdy and stuff. I got to meet the guy that played zander on Buffy the vampire slayer he was cool I even asked hem a nerdy question. 'If he was going to be ash in the evil dead remake' he said he'd love to but hasn't heard anything about it. Dam I'm nerdy also saw the chick from dead like me and Tommy form the power rangers YAAAAAAAA!!
All my friends form Indiana that moved to FL, moved away L so now I'm all alone wooo is me.. I'm so emo. But I thank it is for the best for them.. They might have not been reedy for a huge change such as this.
My mother had a hart attack last month. This was truly scary. I'm not trying to put her business out tear, but she truly need to take better care of herself. She had the bariatric surgery, which did wonders for her. But now she is over eating and the food that she is eating is not healthy.. I know I'm being a little hypocritical. But I do work a gym. Which I thank if I had never gotten this job id probably be 350lb right now. I had to retrain myself on how to eat, because I was never taught right when I was younger. But I do wish she would take better care of herself.
Another thing that was brought to my attention this week by one of my employees. Apparently I am racist? This was a complete surprise to me considering 2 of my best friends are black, and my x-gf is black. Not to mention none of my staff is white? but I'm glad it was brought to my attention. Otherwise I would have never known. So I tolled hem his opinion didn't count and to get back out there and pick that cottonor id call immigration and get hem sent back to Africa. What? He is from Africa he is truly African, not African American , but African I'm still going to hell thou..
I can't what to go to school I'm just so third of working every dam day.. I what to go out and have fun not have to worry about being to work at 9am rather being to class at 6am?? O well that is about it for this installment of me blog! Tune in next month for another existing advancer! Or in 3 more months. Depending on how lazy I am.
As always piece love and masturbation
I'm out! (No homo)
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