soph

things i would probably be dead without:
-deadlines. no this is not meant to be a stupid pun. i cannot function without extremely pressing deadlines.
-music. duh.
-lack of funds. surely this has saved my life more times than i can count, in sooo many ways.
-apathy. it sucks but it keeps me from killing myself, or maybe other people too.
-the good ol' telephone...

i'm so tired i was crying at three a.m. just because i'm so fucking exhausted.

i need a vacation. so i'm going to go to portland and wallow in it for the weekend.

i'm finally getting my shit done. see first point above. it's harsh but immediate deadlines leading to total exhaustion seems to be the only way i can function and get my shit together. otherwise i just spend all my tiime worrying and not doing.

i'm sore. that's the good part.

i'm sad. & mad, at noone in particular. but that's nothin new.

a lot of people have seriously let me down this year, not least of all myself, i guess.

but with all my faults, at least i am very very loyal; i will NEVER let you down unless you show me you don't give half a shit about me.