So I think it’s like important to discuss mental health. Especially me since I have bipolar 1 disorder. So lately I been forgetting to take my mental health meds. Not on purpose tho, I take them at night n well in the past week or so I been like knocking out at night forgetting to take my meds. I def can feel the difference being off my meds. Those bad intrusive thoughts like to creep on in. I start to feel a certain way. More depression. Shit if it’s a very bad day for me sometimes I’ll have them thoughts of like wishing I wasn’t here or didn’t exist. I think I should soon speak to my Dr n see if I can take my meds in the am instead. I just need to intake 350 calories before I can take them. Idk I just think my life sucks. I just get so dam sad, but my dog helps to keep me a live. Before I got him 2 yrs ago the suicidal thoughts was very bad. But they calmed since I got him. I have no support. I am in this all alone n that sucks! Last year I too had no one to turn to n the mental health group here on SG banned me from the group for no reason n I had no one to turn to for support so I ended up cutting up my arm n wanted to die so I called a ambulance on my self n they kept me in the psych ward for 10 days. I too was off my meds when all that happened last year. I really don’t want to go to a hospital again, so I need to try my best to take my meds. Like right now I feel incredibly sad, but I hide it from friends n family. Only y’all on SG will know. Bc of this blog. But yeah def watching your mental health is very important at least in my case. Well to those who read my blog ty so much for reading it, I appreciate it a lot. I love y’all. I love SG. N as long as I’m alive I always will have that love for y’all. I think it’s time for a blunt. Much ❤️ y’all.
