This is probably gonna sound retarded, but, im gonna get it off my chest anyway, just because i can,
and because i fucking feel like it, eat my shit if you dont like it, but, Er, and Greggster, FUCK YOU.
Im tired of the ignorance, the shit y'all say about me. the fag this, the fag that, the fucking bullshit that you two type on the fucking screen.
I know this sounds emo, dramatic schmatic, fuck it, now my words are the bullets from my automatic gat.
I cant take it anymore. Im going through alot of bullshit as it is... and the negativity seeps through my brainwaves like fucking clockwork.
I know you're probably thinking "oh we're just fucking with you, we're just being sarcastic, we dont mean any of it" blah blah fucking BLAH.
I dont really give a FUCK anymore.
i know i talk alot of shit, i know i act like a fucking pimp in a chatroom, i know i talk to a hot chick when i see one,
I FUCKING KNOW, but the reality is, im just trying to make friends, and trying to keep shit off my mind...
i wake up each day and know it was exactly the same as before, i live in a town full of stupid FUCKS,
im broke, tired, hungry, PISSED OFF, because im stuck at home all day long by myself, no money, no gas , no fucking nothing, and i get depressed thinking whats gonna happen a few days down the road.
I sit here and apply the fuck out of places i could find online and hope something turns up.
Then when i finally do get a call , and its the worst place to work at that i started from in the beginning 3 years ago out here, nothing's changed, they still dick around with making me wait to start my fucking job, so i can get back on my motherfucking feet again....
and yet, i still have to work on getting my g.e.d and all kinds of bullshit...
Im in so much goddamn debt that i know will take another year to fix, if that, unless something "miracously" fucking happens. i just found out my MOM has some kind of cancer and may not live a couple years longer,
after having gone to see a doctor just the other day, she hasnt said a word to me about it.
while none of this may appear to do with anything, but its alot of things that is bottled up inside that i cant hold down as much as i thought i could.
i dont even know why im blogging my bullshit... maybe because i have no one to talk to...
im just another hearing impaired piece of shit... that has nothing to show for.
ok there i said it all.. ill go fucking curl up into a ball and cry my fucking eyes out because my life feels fucking worthless.
and because i fucking feel like it, eat my shit if you dont like it, but, Er, and Greggster, FUCK YOU.
Im tired of the ignorance, the shit y'all say about me. the fag this, the fag that, the fucking bullshit that you two type on the fucking screen.
I know this sounds emo, dramatic schmatic, fuck it, now my words are the bullets from my automatic gat.
I cant take it anymore. Im going through alot of bullshit as it is... and the negativity seeps through my brainwaves like fucking clockwork.
I know you're probably thinking "oh we're just fucking with you, we're just being sarcastic, we dont mean any of it" blah blah fucking BLAH.
I dont really give a FUCK anymore.
i know i talk alot of shit, i know i act like a fucking pimp in a chatroom, i know i talk to a hot chick when i see one,
I FUCKING KNOW, but the reality is, im just trying to make friends, and trying to keep shit off my mind...
i wake up each day and know it was exactly the same as before, i live in a town full of stupid FUCKS,
im broke, tired, hungry, PISSED OFF, because im stuck at home all day long by myself, no money, no gas , no fucking nothing, and i get depressed thinking whats gonna happen a few days down the road.
I sit here and apply the fuck out of places i could find online and hope something turns up.
Then when i finally do get a call , and its the worst place to work at that i started from in the beginning 3 years ago out here, nothing's changed, they still dick around with making me wait to start my fucking job, so i can get back on my motherfucking feet again....
and yet, i still have to work on getting my g.e.d and all kinds of bullshit...
Im in so much goddamn debt that i know will take another year to fix, if that, unless something "miracously" fucking happens. i just found out my MOM has some kind of cancer and may not live a couple years longer,
after having gone to see a doctor just the other day, she hasnt said a word to me about it.
while none of this may appear to do with anything, but its alot of things that is bottled up inside that i cant hold down as much as i thought i could.
i dont even know why im blogging my bullshit... maybe because i have no one to talk to...
im just another hearing impaired piece of shit... that has nothing to show for.
ok there i said it all.. ill go fucking curl up into a ball and cry my fucking eyes out because my life feels fucking worthless.
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phantasy:
You are one of my favourite people in chat, you always make me laugh. How can that be worthless? 
moonagedazy:
hugs bro-i feel ya-sorry to hear about ur moms-things will get better-promise-even our darkest hours-there will be some light at the end of the tunnel-besides i think ur the shiznit!