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so not only have I just got myself in a huge bit of fucked situation, to the point that I have to do something against my will. Which for the last 8 months I've been doing what everyone else wanted me to,my hair is slowly falling out. Which it looks that I might be one of those lucky ones that won't lose my hair completely but I'm still not happy about it!

So sperm donor is taking me to court for the test! and boy does this get me so fucking mad! I denied him the DNA test due to him not showing up for the test for 8 months!!! I had enough of waiting around and now he's ready and wants the test so I saw no and he takes me to court...I feel so betrayed and I feel so sick that he's doing this he's talking to me like I'm the worst enemy ever. that I destroyed him and his whole family, he's saying things to me like this test needs to happen... i look at him like he's a freak , when yes this test should have happened 8 months ago!! how dare he turn it around and make me look bad..


this was us just last friday!!! we actually were getting along, and today I can't even look at him with out feeling betrayed. so many people are like just do the test Heather. WHAT you kidding me, he walked away for 8 months and now that he's ready I'm forced into it....and made to seem like it's all me. I asked if we can wait into after my chemo and that's a big fat NO, I have to much on my plate right now to much....sigh I don't know what to do