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How I can tell that I'm into a guy? I cleeeeeeeeean!

Holy crap. One of my guy friends sends me a text saying, "What are you doing? Can I come over?" Granted, this is a friend. We've known each other for close to a year and have been nothing more than buds. Ever. But, I've always had a teeny bit of a flame for him that I try to squash by telling myself shit like, "Oh, he's like my kid brother." or, "Oh, he's as old as my kid brother." Or, "He's a kid." But, as soon as he calls, I'm vacuuming and scrubbing the fuckin' toilet, windexing mirrors... insanity! Then, he gets here and calls like, "Hey, I'm downstairs! Let's go get coffee!" Didn't even come up and see my hard work!

It's just as well. Nothing good would come of anything happening. He's a good guy and I tend to put good guys through the wringer. It's never what I set out to do... it's just what I end up doing.

Sooo... one of my friends has the Simply Music at home study program and says he'll let me use it! I've always wanted to play with that, so I'm looking forward to it!