i am so fucking depressed. i'm getting fat and i hate my family. i just don't think i can love people anymore. basically, everything is to be blamed on everyone else and i'm an innocent bystander. har har. my dad is gone and totally tripping as usual, but takes care of me financially, which i've been feeling guilty about. i feel like i've fallen off of the face of the earth. i don't talk to anyone i used to be friends with and I really don't want to go anywhere because I'm so bitter. It's kind of like my life is over...I don't have a social life and I don't have any real friends. I should've just got knocked up and married or something and started a plumbing business with my husband. That'd be more exciting. Anyways, fuck you and stuff cause no one's reading my journal anyway. This is what I do on my Friday night at 9:30PM. UGGGGGH
