@ges *you* haven’t changed except for getting sexier! I, on the other hand, lost some deadweight through a divorce, but gained more on my body. I’m trying so hard to get back into shape after a hard last few years and my now ex husband becoming a junkie and an abuser after he decided to go off of his PTSD meds and self-medicating with drugs that made him angry and intolerable. He got fired from his job in 2017, then he sat around for a year and didn’t do anything, then went back to school with his GI Bill, but failed out his first semester (he blamed me and my disability/genetic illness, but failed before I had to be hospitalized because he mixed two meds that looked the same into one bottle, causing me to OD, and then I started having seizures... then in court, he tried to say I didn’t have my illness and I was lying about it, despite him being there for the diagnosis... he was trying to get away without paying me any alimony). He got the condo because his parents pay for it to bail him out all the time. I had to move and had 2 weeks to find an apartment and move because he took so long to get payments to me. But yeah, things have been real upside down lately, but I’m trying to get back from giving up on myself and focusing on getting *me* better and making *me* happier. I didn’t ever think I’d be turning 36 and single. I hate the fact that my marriage ended, but the man I married is dead and his shell of a body is walking around with the soul of a sociopath. He went to court against my lawyer, and I wasn’t there due to getting a concussion after falling on ice, and he tried to tell the judge and my lawyer that I was in porn making loads of money. He was referring to here and I haven’t had a set bought since 2009! I also haven’t shot anything since 2017! So he’s crazy. His profile is gone from this site now because he staged some fucked up photos and posted them here. Most of my blogs talk about what went on. He was trying to get me arrested or put in a hospital and ruining everything for me, and brought two people to live with us rent free and the girl roommate stalked all my online posts. I never once named her or her boyfriend, I just would post how I felt about their inconsideration for me. My ex would wake me up early in the morning screaming and punching holes in the walls telling me he’d really show me what abuse was to scream at me for some vague post I made that had nothing to do with anyone in the house and the girl squatter would cry and say I was ruining her reputation, so I’d get screamed at and had to sleep next to a taser and mace due to the fear. Restraining orders happened, I had to get a fake address and name for my mail... There’s way more to this story, but I have an appointment in the morning, so I’ll get into it all later. (And I don’t care if my ex stalks me on here ever because my interpretation of what happened may be different from his drug fueled mind’s, but I can’t get in trouble for speaking what is literally my truth as I see it.)
