i wrote this about 4 weeks ago and i wanted to share. i feel the opposite of this right now.
DEC. 7 2008
''''''i'm the guy who has everything. so why am i so despondent? i want nothing more right now than to cry my eyes out and blame everyone for all the unjust things i have experienced. how selfish. so what? i'm sick of being the nice guy. its funny because not being the nice guy fails just as bad. who am i supposed to be? where am i supposed to go? why has my life been so insignificant?
you know what i miss? being in love. wow that was the best feeling in the world. waking up knowing that there is someone waiting for you....never been in love? try it... what a rush. a never ending supply of smiles as well as kisses. kisses and feelings that make you do nothing short of melt. trancing gazes and stimulating touches that make you lose yourself while the movie entertains itself... entwined and never wanting to let go.
i love how LOVE makes everything else irrelevant
i miss unforced laughter. oh how id give anything to spend a day with my friends. not friends... brothers. this was never supposed to happen... we were never supposed to be held down by distance...i still cant move.... i love you guys.
like my mother who cracks open the door to check up on me as i sleep... my birthday is creeping up on me. but its the elephant in the room that i choose to ignore. its never been this cold before...the meaning has been reduced to just another melting candle... only my breath to spare everyone else from wax flavored vanilla. ill shut my eyes and exhale to extinguish all the flames... know that i wished for you.
its not fair. its not fair. its not fair. nothing is fair.what do you care?
my heavy eyelids send me into reverie of bass solos and smiling thralls of people ive never even met. our strings vibing in unison and vocals make me more that happy. why does my mind feel the need to taunt me of the old days? i shoot a sigh of disheartenment as im smacked back into reality.""""""
what a difference a months makes.
DEC. 7 2008
''''''i'm the guy who has everything. so why am i so despondent? i want nothing more right now than to cry my eyes out and blame everyone for all the unjust things i have experienced. how selfish. so what? i'm sick of being the nice guy. its funny because not being the nice guy fails just as bad. who am i supposed to be? where am i supposed to go? why has my life been so insignificant?
you know what i miss? being in love. wow that was the best feeling in the world. waking up knowing that there is someone waiting for you....never been in love? try it... what a rush. a never ending supply of smiles as well as kisses. kisses and feelings that make you do nothing short of melt. trancing gazes and stimulating touches that make you lose yourself while the movie entertains itself... entwined and never wanting to let go.
i love how LOVE makes everything else irrelevant
i miss unforced laughter. oh how id give anything to spend a day with my friends. not friends... brothers. this was never supposed to happen... we were never supposed to be held down by distance...i still cant move.... i love you guys.
like my mother who cracks open the door to check up on me as i sleep... my birthday is creeping up on me. but its the elephant in the room that i choose to ignore. its never been this cold before...the meaning has been reduced to just another melting candle... only my breath to spare everyone else from wax flavored vanilla. ill shut my eyes and exhale to extinguish all the flames... know that i wished for you.
its not fair. its not fair. its not fair. nothing is fair.what do you care?
my heavy eyelids send me into reverie of bass solos and smiling thralls of people ive never even met. our strings vibing in unison and vocals make me more that happy. why does my mind feel the need to taunt me of the old days? i shoot a sigh of disheartenment as im smacked back into reality.""""""
what a difference a months makes.