sholing

i wish i knew in advance what my days would have in store for me. You know like looking up whats going to be on television, like in a TV guide. Not just on a day to day basis , like whole life scenarios.. I'm scared to fuckin death of this life. Lots of pressures, changes, changes, and more changes..So i'm starting back to school in winter. apparently a fine arts degree doesn;t get you very far, go figure. All my parents belly aching and they were right. Graphic design seems suiting for me right now. Having a profitable skill will be excellent. School is a good place to be for a drifter like myself. There's too many things that interest me, none of them however require me actually doing work. or making money. or anything like that.. kind of sucks for living. Anyways these things i'm doing before i kick the bucket,.............
Finish and publish my book of poetry already in progress, sort of
-Write that pot advocacy book that i still have looming in the back of my head.
-Have a creative epiphany while using photographs, oil paints and any other sort of awe inspiring mixed media.
--Visit Dueno, Italy and it's castles..it's the most beautiful, peaceful inspiring place, so i've read. lots of writers use to go and stay there when they had writers block. Rainer Marie Rilke wrote the Duino Elegies there, beautiful beautifl shit.
-Sing in a band, i would really like to do that.. i have been trying to teach myself guitar off of online guides, not bad directions, but my fingers totally don't want to do it. it seriously hurts.
well i;ve just realized that this list is endless, so i'm going to smoke dank.YEa dank!!