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So I wake up today around 5am, after five whole straight hours of sleep (very good for me) and I have this song in my head. I would hum/sing this when I was in rehab and usually two or three people would chime in and the day would start out right :)
Then, the first set I see is @calalini and I'm literally blown away, at 5am, I mean my eyes were half shut and then just popped open. WHOA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
This set, this woman, this is incredible! This is beyond incredible! Just look at those eyes!!!!!!!!! I'm melting......Awesome stuff @calalini
Then I see the actual front page @onyx
AMAZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZINNNNGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and in the meantime, Bradley Nowell is singing "Life is too short so love the one you got cause you might get run over or you might get shot..." and I'm just in this incredible mood. I can't recall having a morning like this where I actually feel good about myself and other people and what the future holds. fucking christ did I just say that? yuuuuuuup!! and I begin to have this thought of "what exactly is the point of worrying and stressing over things when in the end you're going to die" you were not born with an instruction booklet that said "hey, you have to be a messiah" or "hey you have to write one really good song that everyone will remember," you have been given one life, make the most of it suitable for you, not someone else.
So, I have a therapy goal. Since I've been using the phrase "you get what you put in" a lot, I've been asked to detail what it is I want and what I have to put in to get it. I'll start off with this..I want to be a successful teacher of the English language. What do I have to do to acheive this? 1) spend lots of time learning Greek so that I can get the equivalent of a Greek GED. 2)Learn all the details of the English language, things like present-simple or present-continuous, irregular verbs, etc. etc. Things that I already know and use but because I've been using them for so long, I speak but don't actually remember what these things mean. 3) patience..not only with the students, but with the parents. Patience is something I like to think I have, but in reality, I don't think I have a lot of it :( The Greek GED is going to be the hardest, but you know whats funny? I have had around 15 different students so far in regards to helping them prepare for various levels of English oral examinations, and I constantly have this urge (I haven't done it yet) but I have this urge to tell them the following regarding nervousness/anxiety for their upcoming test: So what happens if you fail? Does that mean you're a piece of shit? Does that mean you aren't worthy of a certificate? This is how I feel nowadays when the idea of me taking a Greek language test comes up. I took this test years ago and failed, and basically gave up on this idea of teaching English. Now I sort of have a different approach..........if I fail, I try again, and again and again and again till I get it right.