The usual cheerful schoolgirl will not be joining you today. I am absolutely upset and utterly depressed. I had the awesomest day at work yesterday. A big customer came to review my bleach and color formulas. They were extremely happy with my work and my preparedness. They approved all three formulas! w00t! My boss also took me aside after the meeting and told me that the raise I asked about 2 months ago came through. omg, it's like over 20%!!!!!!!!!!! That will make life soooooo much easier.
So why am I so sad? This is why:
At the end of the day, I injured myself. BADLY. I can't go into details, because I am so squimish about the injury, it makes me sick to think about. I cut into my finger and finger nail with a paper cutter while preparing some packaging to submit a formula to another customer. I am afraid of blood and I started screaming and covering my eyes and ran into a meeting in another room begging for first aid. The safety officer took me to the emergency room.
They gave me percocet to calm me down cause I was freaking out. The surgeon cut off half my fingernail so she can stitch the laceration below the nail. Three people had to hold me down while I got the surgery. It hurts so damn bad. I am out of work for one day and have to go back to the doctor on monday.
This injury is going to take forever to heal because nails take a long time to grow. I am in so much goddamn pain and I have been seeing stars all day. The tetinus shot in my arm is killing me. I can't do anything. I feel so awful and useless. I need my hands. I am a single, divorced mommy. I am a scientist. What am I supposed to do? Everyone needs me to depend on. This completely sucks. I feel so down because I am used to doing everything and now I need help and am in pain. The pain isn't the worst part, it's the feeling useless that is making me so sad. In addition, I am a girl. I am supposed to be pretty and if anyone saw my frankenstein finger, even the strongest stomach would throw the hell up. I don't want anyone to see me.
I am happy about my raise and my approvals, but this just plain sucks. Why can't I have one perfect day? bastards. I need to go lay down and marinate for a while. I need hugs.
love,
$choolgirl
xoxoxoxoxo
So why am I so sad? This is why:
At the end of the day, I injured myself. BADLY. I can't go into details, because I am so squimish about the injury, it makes me sick to think about. I cut into my finger and finger nail with a paper cutter while preparing some packaging to submit a formula to another customer. I am afraid of blood and I started screaming and covering my eyes and ran into a meeting in another room begging for first aid. The safety officer took me to the emergency room.
They gave me percocet to calm me down cause I was freaking out. The surgeon cut off half my fingernail so she can stitch the laceration below the nail. Three people had to hold me down while I got the surgery. It hurts so damn bad. I am out of work for one day and have to go back to the doctor on monday.
This injury is going to take forever to heal because nails take a long time to grow. I am in so much goddamn pain and I have been seeing stars all day. The tetinus shot in my arm is killing me. I can't do anything. I feel so awful and useless. I need my hands. I am a single, divorced mommy. I am a scientist. What am I supposed to do? Everyone needs me to depend on. This completely sucks. I feel so down because I am used to doing everything and now I need help and am in pain. The pain isn't the worst part, it's the feeling useless that is making me so sad. In addition, I am a girl. I am supposed to be pretty and if anyone saw my frankenstein finger, even the strongest stomach would throw the hell up. I don't want anyone to see me.
I am happy about my raise and my approvals, but this just plain sucks. Why can't I have one perfect day? bastards. I need to go lay down and marinate for a while. I need hugs.
love,
$choolgirl
xoxoxoxoxo
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I hope that you feel better really soon, and on another note, I have no words to express how happy I was to see you return to my friends' list.