saturn1

this christmas eve i will be saying goodbye to someone that i love dearly, for what is probably going to be forever. we were supposed to spend christmas together, but i guess life likes to remind you that it can change all sorts of things in one minute. it's kind like mourning a death, which is funny because a new life is what brought all this about. it's like like a million people have said, sometimes i laugh to keep myself from crying. that phrase always makes me laugh and i have no idea why.

i'll watch twin peaks and cry and drink some cabernet and remind myself over and over again that life is change and to live is to embrace it and make myself realize that i am blessed to have known him at all.

i can't wait to get home on monday & be in a familiar place.