Two things to say: the way that you write, the way that you express yourself, the very thoughts that you express reminde me a philosopher and make me agree Martine.
And what you sad about Dee and also the pleasure that Martine takes from complimenting you, make me think what a titanic wonderful girl you should be.
I envy your friends and lovers, just for have the privilege of ber around you.
XOXO,
L.A.
That was very well done. I really like your writing style. I can see the logic in Martine's theory. For me I have to say my view point is similar and somewhat different due to my situation. For too long I've stayed away from relationships due to past tragities and now from the fact that I am willing to sacrifice my own comfort to maintain my focus on the battle ahead. I know a few girls back home and study them and one i wrote about in my journal, but since my getting deployed to Iraq I would rather not have them hurt more if something should happen to me. The thing is the guys don't understand why I don't use girls like they do and I recieve a bunch of shit for it. Namely because I like the whole "boarding" idea and not the go after the easy girls. I also like intelligent women and learning about them. One reason I like Suicide Girls is that the women are not only beautiful but are smart as well and you can talk to them. I would rather go through the process of getting to know a girl than getting her drunk and using her. In my life experiences and job I feel much older than my age but I don't feel invincible at all, yet too many people are far too comfortable with day to day living and forget to actually live. For me I need a drive in life, something to accomplish, like when I risked my life to go back to Colombia to find my Biological family. Now to fight the Guerilla in Iraq and may be eventually in Colombia, yet I am wanting to start a family too. It depend on what I feel after Iraq. A drive in life is important because otherwise things become day to day. I hate that feeling and it makes people become petty about little things and don't know the extent of what they are capable of. I may feel old but I am aware that I can die and have a possibility when I go to Iraq, but I will still strive to become more and feel that even when I have a wife and kids I will keep that drive. I have met similar people with such drives to accomplish something but these days its becoming rare. What I read from others that talk about you and what you write you sound very interesting and a person that one wants to know, which is why on your last post I severly disagreed with what the shallow people thought of you. Take care and keep writing.
