oh boy I"m back to online dating. Yes I admit it. Well dating seems a little extreme. I back to making friends online that happen to be men? Does that sound better? Of course I don't really have a ton of time for this but it makes for some fun. I mean all of my friends are married for real.
Radiation starts Monday for 5 weeks. I have a total of 16 pin prick tattoos on my chest to line up the lasers. Interesting eh? In the end, I will end up having the shit burned out of me. I've seen photos, it isn't pretty. However it's only a month or so and it isn't chemo and it isn't surgery and it is preventative, the tumors are gone. I'll be tired and I'll be burned but I will still be living (in the entire sense of the word).
someone recently told me I was selfish. It really hurt to hear that as I consider myself a pretty giving person. In fact I've overgiven to some. then I realized..hmm I'm not selfish fucktard, I've been fighting for my life. There is a difference between selfish and selfcare.
did I mentioin how glad I am that the fucking holidays are over. I enjoy being with friends but some of the reminders I just don't need.
smooches.
Radiation starts Monday for 5 weeks. I have a total of 16 pin prick tattoos on my chest to line up the lasers. Interesting eh? In the end, I will end up having the shit burned out of me. I've seen photos, it isn't pretty. However it's only a month or so and it isn't chemo and it isn't surgery and it is preventative, the tumors are gone. I'll be tired and I'll be burned but I will still be living (in the entire sense of the word).
someone recently told me I was selfish. It really hurt to hear that as I consider myself a pretty giving person. In fact I've overgiven to some. then I realized..hmm I'm not selfish fucktard, I've been fighting for my life. There is a difference between selfish and selfcare.
did I mentioin how glad I am that the fucking holidays are over. I enjoy being with friends but some of the reminders I just don't need.
smooches.
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What book was that - was it Portnoy's Complaint? - where the wife goes to the husband's gravesite and says "how could you do this to me?"
Stay strong stay positive; I admire your tenacity...