Well once again it's been a little bit since i've updated. Reasons?... sure work and depression drinking. So maybe about a week ago my greatest friend whose always been there to help me out for years, i'm talking since 6th grade, calls me up while i'm driving home. And as if it weren't bad enough that jess broke up with me and my grandma (the last grand-parent i have) is going senile, leaving her as the sole women in my life that i can rely upon for a shoulder, decides to tell me outta the blue that we can't be friends anymore. Followed by don't call, text or see her anymore... ever. No rhyme or reason, just a straight lick to my face and she's out. Yes i've tried callin her back but never any answer. I feel as though all the women i know and love just within the last month decided to come at my heart with a chizel. This really sux 
I do hope that everyone who actually reads my journal anymore is doin good.
I do hope that everyone who actually reads my journal anymore is doin good.
I'm really sorry to hear about your grandmother.... what can I say really.. there's ntohing I can say that won't make me sound like an arrogant jerk who thinks she understands... I obviously don't know you beyond SG, so I won't claim to have some great wisdom to all that's going on in your life. All I can say is that things get better, and don't give up on your grandmother.. grandma's have a power I think. I've always found, and remember mine to be magical. Their love really resinates... I could always feel it even when she was miles away. I'm sure that through whatever she's suffering, that she's telling you the same.
Things will get better.
I'd be happy to listen to you if you want to write further... sometimes that can help.