Its been awhile since I last posted. Wow 
. A lot has happened in a month, most notably a mutual decision to break up with my boyfriend, my 21st birthday (a really low key event.. dinner of sushi and drinking in a park with my best friend) and committing to doing things differently than I have in the past (mostly concerning how I'm handling the break up and dating now, and "getting out of my own way").
I'm doing really well with the post-breakup stuff. Like.. I really wasn't all that upset, compared to how I usually am with breakups. I get a little angry sometimes, but its more of a "roll your eyes and shake your head" type of thing, than a "I'm going to lose sleep over it and be messed up for the next few months" type thing. I'm happy for that
Second Cup is kind of annoying, but overall good. Someone got fired, another girl left for a job in another province, and another girl is doing the same thing. Sweet
Dating... I'm not really sure how to date properly, to be honest. I've always just dove into exclusive relationships. I don't really want to sleep around. Or, I find a guy I sort of like, and get lost in the moment, and go too far way too soon. I guess I went on a date today (he's a friend of my now ex-boyfriend's).. he was nice We went to the library, sat by the river at the Legislative Building, went to Second Cup, watched tv, and tried to get sushi. We cuddled, and that was all (he smelled really nice~). I was surprised, slightly torn, but overall happy with my self-control and being honest about my boundaries.
I also don't want a relationship. It seems nice, but I don't really want to be tied down, and it seems too soon as well. I want to feel like I can go out and flirt with other guys (just for kicks.. I'm learning that flirting is pretty fun XD) and not have a guy I'm sort of seeing attaching himself to my hip. And I don't agree with flirting with other guys if you ARE in an exclusive relationship. So yeah.. that's where I'm at.
Relationships aside... I rode my bike to my ballet class tonight. I think its a 5 minute, MAYBE 10 minute ride from my house to where I take ballet. I did super well in class today. Like.. I really got into our exercises and pushed myself more than usual. When I left, as soon as I stepped outside I could smell white lilacs. I biked home (it was just getting dark.. its my favorite time of the evening) with the scent surrounding me.. it was beautiful.
I just had a chill night at home tonight. I'm really liking these.. watching some tv while doing some sort of mindless task, tidying my room. It was just nice to spend time at home. i had a super busy week last week. My friend had a table at a craft sale, so I was keeping her company, and on a lot of those days I had to work in the evenings for 8 hours, then talking on the phone a lot to that guy I had the date with today. Chill time is wonderful, and I look forward to more tomorrow, and the other 2 days off in a row that I have
I guess I should go to bed though, its pretty late Sweet dreams for me tonight.
. A lot has happened in a month, most notably a mutual decision to break up with my boyfriend, my 21st birthday (a really low key event.. dinner of sushi and drinking in a park with my best friend) and committing to doing things differently than I have in the past (mostly concerning how I'm handling the break up and dating now, and "getting out of my own way").
I'm doing really well with the post-breakup stuff. Like.. I really wasn't all that upset, compared to how I usually am with breakups. I get a little angry sometimes, but its more of a "roll your eyes and shake your head" type of thing, than a "I'm going to lose sleep over it and be messed up for the next few months" type thing. I'm happy for that
Second Cup is kind of annoying, but overall good. Someone got fired, another girl left for a job in another province, and another girl is doing the same thing. Sweet
Dating... I'm not really sure how to date properly, to be honest. I've always just dove into exclusive relationships. I don't really want to sleep around. Or, I find a guy I sort of like, and get lost in the moment, and go too far way too soon. I guess I went on a date today (he's a friend of my now ex-boyfriend's).. he was nice
We went to the library, sat by the river at the Legislative Building, went to Second Cup, watched tv, and tried to get sushi. We cuddled, and that was all (he smelled really nice~). I was surprised, slightly torn, but overall happy with my self-control and being honest about my boundaries.
I also don't want a relationship. It seems nice, but I don't really want to be tied down, and it seems too soon as well. I want to feel like I can go out and flirt with other guys (just for kicks.. I'm learning that flirting is pretty fun XD) and not have a guy I'm sort of seeing attaching himself to my hip. And I don't agree with flirting with other guys if you ARE in an exclusive relationship. So yeah.. that's where I'm at.
Relationships aside... I rode my bike to my ballet class tonight. I think its a 5 minute, MAYBE 10 minute ride from my house to where I take ballet. I did super well in class today. Like.. I really got into our exercises and pushed myself more than usual. When I left, as soon as I stepped outside I could smell white lilacs. I biked home (it was just getting dark.. its my favorite time of the evening) with the scent surrounding me.. it was beautiful.
I just had a chill night at home tonight. I'm really liking these.. watching some tv while doing some sort of mindless task, tidying my room. It was just nice to spend time at home. i had a super busy week last week. My friend had a table at a craft sale, so I was keeping her company, and on a lot of those days I had to work in the evenings for 8 hours, then talking on the phone a lot to that guy I had the date with today. Chill time is wonderful, and I look forward to more tomorrow, and the other 2 days off in a row that I have
I guess I should go to bed though, its pretty late
Sweet dreams for me tonight.