Often the timing is just off for too long and circumstances change, complicating things... On the other hand you feel good. The question is not if there is guilt in feeling good but if the feeling is strong enough to justify fighting the complications and strong enough to power you through.
Oh man. It does sounds messy, or potentially messy, but do I know how you feel about this. I've had something similar and it's so hard to keep yourself in check sometimes, especially when they encourage it. lol