roguemind

I wish i could be less shy. I was told today that, that was my only fault(when it comes to my job). I'm to passive. Apparently i know what i'm doing. I'm just6 not aggressive enough. And that was the good kind of criticism BTW. I got slightly drunk with the big giant head from work and we talked about some things. It was a good conversation.
and just in case you get surprised if we ever meet. I am shy. I try to hide it, but i am.
Let me digress.
I think of a million possibilities a day that never happen. Most of them good, Sometimes i think my imagination effects my reality. It probably just some hidden link to my mind i havnt figured out yet. And ill give you an example. Some time not so long ago i wrote about a plane ride where i imagined(dreamed?) the girl sitting next to me would just start talking to me and we would fall madly in love. It never happened, She ignored me and I went on about my day. That was a silly example, I know. But things like that happen to me all the time. It is almost like if i think of something (good?) it will never happen. We all have dreams of a better life. But my mind attemps to think of everything all the time. Obviously i dont think of everything, but that is not the point. Everything i do dream up, that is a good thing anyways, never happens. I will leave this at that. I am pretty sure i do not want to walk the path that this little journal is going. If you read this thanks for paying attention. You are noticed.

-bloodyGIR