Monday Mar 30, 2009

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i'm coming to realize how little people at work actually care about me.

i have been talking about my martial arts test for EVER. people have seen me practicing for it. now that it's over, people have witnessed me limping around (goddamn test fucking hobbled me for some reason. probably all the running.) but not a single person has asked me how it went. the few people III mentioned it to were disinterested and didn't ask any sort of questions about how well it went. no one even cares that i'm quite obviously limping.

i hate when i let my feelings get hurt by people who's opinions i don't care about. but their lack of interest in something so important to me, coupled with the overwhelmingly negative response to my new mohawk is making me really question how little these people have invested in me.

my family did the same thing on saturday, and i was coming FROM the test to see them. they asked how it went and then moved on. maybe i'm asking for too much, but this shit is incredibly important to me. if someone had an audition or a job interview or something important, i would have the courtesy to inquire in depth, you know? maybe i'm being oversensitive, but i feel like i invest a lot in people and it isn't always reciprocated.

bleh.
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mizoo:
It's hard to say that because people don't seem interested in your achievements that they absolutely don't care about you...I know that it can be hard to relate to other people's interest and it's much easier to move on than to pretend you know what someone is talking about. I'd say it actually hurts worse when someone leads you to talk their ear off and then have no idea what you said. I've pretty much given up talking to most people about the things I like unless I know they have some interest or knowledge of it...Sad but true.
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lanemeyer:
People are people, man. Truth is, you probably DO invest a lot into people and it's not always (or even half the time) reciprocated. Some people are more caring, considerate and deliberate about their feelings than others. You gotta get correct with yourself and let it be, or else it will destroy you from the inside and it'll perpetuate itself and the worse you'll get, the less you'll feel like anyone notices or cares about your decline. I've seen it! Don't let it get there! Fight it, member-formerly-known-as-RobotFuckFace-and currently-known-as-Mizoo-in-what-can-only-be-described-as-the-SG-version-of-Freaky-Friday. Fight it!

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