riz

I've got the worst case of winter blues that I've ever had in my entire life. I don't know what's wrong with me as of late, but I've not felt like my normal cheery self at all. I think that working all that overtime and removing my social life so completely hurt me more than I'd like to admit... but I think it's more cause I realize more and more with each passing day that I'm not going to be in Fargo forever. All my friends? I won't have much more time with them. I want to enjoy it.

I'm torn between saving money and spending it going out to enjoy my final months in Fargo. I don't have enough time to do all the things I want to do and I know that I'm going to have to let a lot of the stuff go in order to be ready to move in time. Really, I just need to pull it together soon, cause I'm sick of being so down all the time.

In the mean time, I really don't feel like talking much so excuse me if I'm distant. I ache for less time online and more time with people I can hug and kiss on the cheek and laugh with over beers. So forgive me if I'm not around till I get out of this.

Riz