well, its a new year! i wish everyone the best of New Years wishes. i hope your year proves to be eventful and prosperous.
ive been delving a lot more into the fantasy relm of nerdiness. watching some TableTop with Wil Wheaton, playing lots of D&D (why did i not do this sooner??), and also playing Skyrim now...a lot. they are all nice escapes for me.
ive been getting further into my therapy. we've dug to a point where we have found a hidden chapter to my screwed-upness. i dont wish to get into great detail, but just wanting to let you all know that im getting there. its hard though. i had a breakdown today, and decided to take a trip out to the cemetary since it was the only nice day we'll have in a while. it hurts me to the core to know that hes down there, so cold. he hated winter so much. i cant wait until its springtime.
speaking of seasons, the wedding planning is coming along slowly but surely. we're into the "oh shit, its coming up!" stage. finalizing appts and outfits, decorations and guest lists. im starting to have nightmares where we forget important things, like the pastor, or the rings.. ugh! and of course HE isnt pulling very much weight. whatever. he complains that i sometimes call it "my" wedding...but if youre not gunna pull your weight, then fuck yeah its "my" wedding.
oh, and i guess ill tell you all: my birthday is next sunday (feb 2nd), which i guess is super bowl sunday? i dont follow sports, but thats what i heard. so everyone will be celebrating during my birthday! and i will pretend its all for me. how sweet of you all! ;)
so if you wanna send me presents, heres my giftlist http://www.amazon.com/registry/wishlist/1SKICEFKRADL6
you know, if you want. cause that would be cool. since my fam and friends are only going to be taking me out to stuff my face, no presents (theyve all been helping me financially, so i dont want to ask for presents).
so. hope you all have a wonderful time, and stay safe and warm. ill try to find the time to blog more!
xoxo, River
