Well this has been a hell of a couple weeks. First i found out that my soon to be wife had blood clots in two of the veins in her arm so she has been in the hospital for a week and a half. They have no idea what caused the clots either but the only thing they can come up with is it is a combination of her birth control and smoking, i think thier missing the obvious. Little back story for ya'll in October she crushed her hand under a TV and had mild compartment syndrome which led to RSD. So long story short, they took her off her birth control and made her quit smoking, so between the sudden onslaught of PMS and nicotine withdrawl she has been just a joy to be around. They also put her on a blood thinner, which with as clumsy as she is she'll be a mass of bruises. Thankfully she came home from the hospital today which made me happy.
The other part of the my shitty couple of weeks is that I've been having constant panic attacks and i don't even know why! I mean yes i was worried about J and what was going to happen but i didn't think it was enough to do this to me. I used to have panic attacks all the time but thanks to Xanax and then a month of self-enforced rehab i got them under control. The Xanax addiction and rehab i'll go into in another blog just so you don't feel like i'm cheating you on that story. So again to make a long story a little bit shorter, i haven't been able to go into work and the doctors gave me Vistaril which i have taken one of since i got them, knowing my proclivativty to over take them. This has been the first day in about a week that I have been able to do more than sit up with out feeling like i was going to pass out and\or die. I'm also officially out of vactation time so i have to go back to work tomorrow which, right now, i'm feeling pretty confident about being able to do!!
Ok enough of my rant for tonight. i want to thank you all for reading this, if any one does that is lol Its nice to finally find an outlet to get these things out and not feel like everyone in the world is going to read and judge, because as long as i have been on this site all i've seen is nice and supportive people. It used to be that the only outlet had was my poems but i'm so self concious about those i've only ever let the future wifey read them, but i do like to write so this is what i propose: I'm going to take requests, suggestions, or ideas of anything you people want me to blog about on here! So let'em rip it'll gove me something to do besides wondering if my heart is going to explode or die of bordom at work. Well thanks for listening, or reading that is, lol
The other part of the my shitty couple of weeks is that I've been having constant panic attacks and i don't even know why! I mean yes i was worried about J and what was going to happen but i didn't think it was enough to do this to me. I used to have panic attacks all the time but thanks to Xanax and then a month of self-enforced rehab i got them under control. The Xanax addiction and rehab i'll go into in another blog just so you don't feel like i'm cheating you on that story. So again to make a long story a little bit shorter, i haven't been able to go into work and the doctors gave me Vistaril which i have taken one of since i got them, knowing my proclivativty to over take them. This has been the first day in about a week that I have been able to do more than sit up with out feeling like i was going to pass out and\or die. I'm also officially out of vactation time so i have to go back to work tomorrow which, right now, i'm feeling pretty confident about being able to do!!
Ok enough of my rant for tonight. i want to thank you all for reading this, if any one does that is lol Its nice to finally find an outlet to get these things out and not feel like everyone in the world is going to read and judge, because as long as i have been on this site all i've seen is nice and supportive people. It used to be that the only outlet had was my poems but i'm so self concious about those i've only ever let the future wifey read them, but i do like to write so this is what i propose: I'm going to take requests, suggestions, or ideas of anything you people want me to blog about on here! So let'em rip it'll gove me something to do besides wondering if my heart is going to explode or die of bordom at work. Well thanks for listening, or reading that is, lol
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brisuscheez:
Things will get better for you both I'm sure of it - please just hang in there and support each other!
bastet:
Hey there!! sorry to read that.. best wishes!!!