renegadefuzz

blarg.. 6am. up waaaay too early... 2:30am up waaaay too late...



*edit: 11:36am*

So I've been up for 5 1/2 hours. I feel impressive, because I'm not sleepy at all. I am, however, a bit damp and sore.

I've decided that the world hates me. Maybe it hasn't for a long time, but as of recently, it's been hating me. Not that it hates me with the fire of 1,000 suns, mind you, but maybe 2 or 3. So I'm going to bitch. I've not really that much to bitch about, but enough that I want to just rant for a while. My family can't come and see me when I'm being lonely, and neither can my boy. My professors are driving me insane slowly, and something recently in each of my classes has been fucked up, and will end up with me losing points in the class, when it's not necessarily my fault in the matter. I've been feeling rather abandoned by my friends, or when I'm not being abandoned, I have to jump on all of their band wagons and not do what I want because the instant I say otherwise I'm less than cool. I try to be nice and girly and not do things like walk around barefoot so I can try to keep my feet nice (can't believe some people pitched a fit about how "gross" my feet are. They're freakin feet! If they don't have callouses, then you pay waaaay too much attention to them...), so instead I wear flip flops (I hate shoes), and today after class I found a lovely new equation: Flip-flops + rain + marble outside stair case = Ellen on her bum. Now I'm sore as hell cause I bruised my tailbone and I hit so hard when I came down that my keys actually broke skin (through my jeans) and I was bleeding! Then when I tried to walk back to my dorm room, I ended up almost losing a flip flop while walking across the street cause it was slippery and wet, and then I dropped my lunch bag in a puddle and it ripped in half.

So I'm feeling this shitty already and it's not even noon?

great...

*edit 4:19pm*

So my bum has really been hurting and I decided to check it out... I've got a massive bruise now, and just because I'm one to share such things.. here is a picture..



Yeah. So that's on my bum, and it's about... 6 inches wide? It takes up the entire side of it... I dunno.. I guess big dark bruises like that just impress me. Sometimes I get the most colorful bruises.. this one is almost as good as when I had surgery on my leg. Except I didn't like the stitches.. *shudder* Anyway.. I know I'm weird.. I just want to share my pain...