recoveringmale

i stared into the domain of Despair today, through my computer screen. overwhelmed with the urge to destroy myself, to give up forever. i got over it, but it frustrates me how weak i can be. sitting here listening to the Bends, something i've not sat with for a long while. thinking. remembering. i make the same mistakes, or rather, have the same flaws of character now as i did when i was a teenager. i seem never to learn. somehow i go through experience after experience without taking anything valuable from it. doomed to make these mistakes over and over. all i was given i squandered. i reminisce about the past, through rose-colored glasses...
"it's the best thing that you've ever had
the best thing you have had has gone away..."