rebeldaisy

lately i haven't been feeling like myself, but i've been saying that a lot lately (pretty much the entire summer). so maybe i've changed and this is who i am now? if so i don't like it. not one little bit.

but what to do about it? hmmm, i'm throwing myself into my school stuff. that kinda helps. distracts the mind and stuff. not a real way of dealing with things though.

sometimes i need to learn how to shut my mind down. stop the thinking. i haven't learned how to do it yet.

enough of that crap. i hate talking about my problems even in the vague fashion i normally use..

i am a horrible friend. really i am. my computer is still being a bastard though so most times its hard to comment as my computer likes to freeze and do weird shit. i did turn on my aim for like a minute, but that was pushing the limits of this dumb machine. one of these days soon this damn thing will be fixed. tuesday in fact.

he's coming to visit next weekend. hopefully that'll help things. improve my mood a little bit.

i hate ponchos.