Well 4 the past 2yrs its been messed up. I got hurt at work then I got to doc then he sends me back to work then a month after that I ruptured the disk in my back that I hur. Then work will not send me back to doc they think I'm just trying to get out of work. So I had to leave the job and get a lawyer. But now I don't have any money coming in so I lost everything my woman kids car truck and house. Now I have to stay with family at 35 years old I have nothing I get back to doctor and now I get workers comp but its not much it pays sum bill and food. Then I have back surgery in march this year still can't work yet doc still has me out. I try to meet someone to spend my life with but wat do I have to give any woman out there. I'm a good man with a big heart and lots of love but that is not any good for them when u have no job no car live with ue parent at 3t5. On top of that ur fat ugly wat good r u to anyone I don't know y I keep going on but I do I take it that I just love the pain but I don't I hate my life and I don't want it any more y is it that I can't have wat I want in life am I a bad person wat did I do. I just want out. I need out I can't take this shit anymore.