Life can be quite difficult sometimes. Not to pass judgment (be it good or bad), but your doing the right thing. Why? You realize your not ready. I wish I knew some things earlier that I now know.
I applaude your strenth in charactor. Not many could even attempt to do the right thing.
You can call me anytime should you need to vent. I work two jobs and only sleep between 8:30am-11:30am and again from 7:30pm-11:30pm.
It's not easy doing the right thing. I feel ya on this one bro.