I'm officially 25 today!! Crazy I don't feel like it though. So much has happened in my life. It's crazy to look back at everything and think, "wow, my parents were right, why did I try to grow up so fast?" Meh, I don't regret anything, it's been a roller coaster ride and some of the tracks came loose but I've made it!
I get to spend today with my awesome boyfriend and my two beautiful daughters, so for me it's an amazing birthday :) We got cake and blew out the candles like we do every year and this year me and my almost 3 year old shared that moment, she will be 3 on Saturday! We got some yummy yummy ice cream cake!
It's funny to me that I used to be all about celebrating my birthday, and now it's just another day. Well kinda, I pretty much celebrate my youngests birthday on mine because it's only two days after so it's cool to share that time together.
Anyway, my life has changed tremendously in the last year. I lost a child, removed myself from the worst relationship I could've ever been in, quit my amazing job and moved away from my "home" leaving everything and everyone that was a part of it behind. It all made me so much stronger and so much happier!
After two years of mentally crushing myself I got back with the most amazing person, my best friend, my children's father, my love. Things have been so amazing! We are doing the convention together this year, he's been supporting the awesome SG part of my life, and we are planning to move back in together in the next couple months! I don't really have any complaints, which is awesome!
And then there is the big change that happened... ALL OF YOU!
Everyone that pushed me to become a hopeful, everyone that supported me just being a member, everyone that said I was beautiful and made me believe it! You all have been such an amazing addition to my life. I know I may not know you all in person, a lot of you I've never even had a conversation with, but regardless of whether we have interacted or not, EVERY SINGLE PERSON in this community has made being here one of the greatest accomplishments of my life. The confidence change I've experienced is so crazy to me, I don't think "that's a lie" when people tell me I'm beautiful, I now actually FEEL it all of the time. That's because of you all. Interacting in all the groups has been so fun! To every one in the silliness group, you all rock! I go there for giggles when I'm in a funk, because who doesn't want to know what people smell like?! Haha. @missy and @sean get a special thank you, because even though SG gets some rough criticism from social media and even some of us crazy ladies come at you guys, you two are the reason I'm here! So no matter what comes from this, regardless of whether it says hopeful or SuicideGirl under my name, I have an escape from my crazy life and a family outside of my blood. I have a place to come and be myself, and ramble on blogs, share pictures, talk about what I drank last night and even see some amazingly beautiful women and can't forget those handsome SuicideBoys! I have all of this because of you guys! So I thank you guys SO MUCH for dealing with all of us and the world and making this place my home. Also, every staff member, every moderator, every photographer and every recruiter need their big thank yous! I know you all work your asses off and it is very much appreciated!!
Geez, what I thought would be a "status update" turned into a story. I got all the feels going on right now! Sorry for the rambling... I LOVE YOU ALL! Now I'm gonna go get plump on some cake :)
The set of the day for my birthday:
@syd 😍😍
