i feel like such a girl.
there is this guy at work. his name is frankie. to put it mildly, the guy is gorgeous, like absolutely knocked me off my socks as soon as i met him gorgeous. and i like him, a lot. but conflicting thoguhts keep rolling through my head:
- he's the shop manager. yes we work at the same company, but i only see him maybe once a week for five minutes. therefore, it wouldn't really be shitting where i eat, would it?
- he's the shop manager, meaning he works from 6am to 6pm monday through friday, is on call til whenever at night (actually picks up his phone), and he has 6am work calls on saturday, and sometimes sunday. he has so little personal time, would it even be worth it?
- he is so beautiful, he probably already has a girlfriend. he has to have a girlfriend. how can he not already have a girlfriend? he is a sweet soft spoken beautiful soul with a smile that makes me melt. who wouldn't want him like i'm wanting him?
- we talk, when i get to see him. once i slept in front of the shop for a few hours before i had to wake up at 8am. when i got up, i went into the shop (cause i say the door was open) and he was there. he said he saw me sleeping when he came in and was going to wake me up, but decided to let me snooze a little more instead. also, we had a cute five minute conversation while i was waiting for my truck to get packed on thursday. he had just gotten back from vacation in vegas and i was sitting on an empty case just looking around the shop. HE walked up to ME and started talking. that means something, right?
i hate this teenage girl tripping over a boy (bullshit) emotions. i haven't felt this way in sooo long and i don't know what to do. inevitably, i will probably try to make a move and see where it goes from there (or find out he has a girlfriend and do nothing at all).
ugh, there is so much shit with being single again.
<3,
~poetic
there is this guy at work. his name is frankie. to put it mildly, the guy is gorgeous, like absolutely knocked me off my socks as soon as i met him gorgeous. and i like him, a lot. but conflicting thoguhts keep rolling through my head:
- he's the shop manager. yes we work at the same company, but i only see him maybe once a week for five minutes. therefore, it wouldn't really be shitting where i eat, would it?
- he's the shop manager, meaning he works from 6am to 6pm monday through friday, is on call til whenever at night (actually picks up his phone), and he has 6am work calls on saturday, and sometimes sunday. he has so little personal time, would it even be worth it?
- he is so beautiful, he probably already has a girlfriend. he has to have a girlfriend. how can he not already have a girlfriend? he is a sweet soft spoken beautiful soul with a smile that makes me melt. who wouldn't want him like i'm wanting him?
- we talk, when i get to see him. once i slept in front of the shop for a few hours before i had to wake up at 8am. when i got up, i went into the shop (cause i say the door was open) and he was there. he said he saw me sleeping when he came in and was going to wake me up, but decided to let me snooze a little more instead. also, we had a cute five minute conversation while i was waiting for my truck to get packed on thursday. he had just gotten back from vacation in vegas and i was sitting on an empty case just looking around the shop. HE walked up to ME and started talking. that means something, right?
i hate this teenage girl tripping over a boy (bullshit) emotions. i haven't felt this way in sooo long and i don't know what to do. inevitably, i will probably try to make a move and see where it goes from there (or find out he has a girlfriend and do nothing at all).
ugh, there is so much shit with being single again.
<3,
~poetic
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