piggers

Desperately trying to give up smoking but I'm so weak, I really need a smoke. I wish I could just smoke and not be unhealthy. No fucking chance I know, but still. I like a smoke when I have a drink, and being 21 means that alcohol just happens to be part of my life. I know it's not essential, but I work in a crematoriu, so it's more of a destresser from my daytime.

Want to do something meaningful with my life, like become an artist, or play music, maybe write a song. Of course, I'm totally tone deaf and useless when it comes to artistic ideas. Fuck