Mostly because when I've gotten to talk to her over the past month it's been via email and I'm sure she's sending her emailed from her crackberry because everything is so abrupt and bordering in on rude.
(For instance she wanted to know the position of the baby so she sent me for an ultrasound. After it was done I emailed her and told her the result - head down - and she emailed me back "I need the report" (that was the entire email. no "hi" no "good" nothing) Which is all fine and wonderful, I just had the information so I thought she'd want it before the week long wait for the report.)

She's charging me $5000, which from what I gather is quite steep. I wouldn't mind so much if I was paying to have someone AVAILABLE to me. But she's not.

When we first talked about how much it would all cost she said that it was $5000 plus the costs for the birth kit, which would run around $60. Well her birth kit is $90, plus she's given me a HUGE list of other stuff that I HAVE to have and I've spent more like $300 on supplies - which is fine but would have been nice to know in advance. (Plus some of the supplies are EXCESSIVE. Like she wants me to have 3 packages of large chux pads. 3 packages is so excessive that the company I ordered from actually emailed me before packing my order to make sure I wasn't off my rocker.)
She also didn't give me the supply list until I was like 34 weeks and she asked if I had everything yet and I told her I never got a list (I didn't, honestly.) and she told me "I ALWAYS give the list out with the first appointment." (All that despite my asking at around 20 weeks and 24 weeks for the list and not getting it.)


Last appointment she wanted me to get an ultrasound, plus I needed to go back to Ottawa for Visa stuff. So I told her we planned on going to Ottawa from Halloween for one week. We looked at the calendar and she decided that she could see me when I got back, but we'd actually set the date once I returned. So once I got back I emailed her saying "I'm back, let me know when you want to see me." Didn't get a response for a week. She had mentioned that she might go on vacation while I was gone. So I emailed her again saying "Hey, I guess you're still away, Hope you're having fun, when are you back?" and I got a response saying "I thought you were going to Canada." So I politely told her the dates of my trip. And got an email saying "I'm back Nov 30th, I can see you at 2:30pm" (note: this puts me at 38 weeks + 3 and having not had a prenatal for a month and a week) So I fucking flipped out and had an anxiety attack (didn't respond to her until I chilled out from that) So I emailed her saying "Sounds good, is there someone else you'd like me to have a prenatal with since I'll be 36 weeks tomorrow?" To which she responded "I'll do a home visit early Nov 25th."
(That's tomorrow. Yesterday I emailed her asking what time I should expect her on Wednesday and did she need directions, I haven't heard back from her.)

So here I am at 37 +3 haven't had any prenatal care ('cept what I took upon myself to do - ie: get my urine and BP checked at the clinic in Ottawa) since a month ago.

There's no action plan at all, so I really don't know what I'm supposed to do if I go into labor. (I'm assuming I call her... beyond that...?)