Going to Myrtle Beach while in the States. Looking forward to slightly warm weather and the first 'alone time' with just my husband since the baby was born 7 months ago. 
The hotel we are staying at has an indoor 'lazy river'...I'm so excited.
It doesn't take much, heh. But relaxing in an inner tube floating in heated water just sounds like so much fun.
Even though things are still going on in the situation about my marriage I'm not going to bring it up for a little bit. I just want to keep things lite for a while.
I'm 122lbs and I've never been that big in my life. Pre-pregnancy I could never quite hit that 100lbs mark no matter how much junk-food, etc. I ate. Dropping 10-15lbs shouldn't be too hard, right? If I ever got started...
Where is my motivation!! 
Women are the most beautifully complicated and enthralling creatures. My heart can't take it...
The hotel we are staying at has an indoor 'lazy river'...I'm so excited.
It doesn't take much, heh. But relaxing in an inner tube floating in heated water just sounds like so much fun.
Even though things are still going on in the situation about my marriage I'm not going to bring it up for a little bit. I just want to keep things lite for a while.
I'm 122lbs and I've never been that big in my life. Pre-pregnancy I could never quite hit that 100lbs mark no matter how much junk-food, etc. I ate. Dropping 10-15lbs shouldn't be too hard, right? If I ever got started...
Where is my motivation!!
Women are the most beautifully complicated and enthralling creatures. My heart can't take it...
I felt that connection we had (have?) was truly rare too. I guess i still do, but, it is just to hard to move in and out of his life and even harder to be in his life all the time without things being the way I want them to be.
Good luck with the family visit and the therapy. Therapy has alwys been a good thing for me. In fact, i may go back myself.
That made perfect sense to me. I understand completely how hard it is to reconcile the logical with the emotional.
Heh, re my plan to move on. We will see, I think if I were really acting sensibly I would move on without seeing him again. I may lose my resolve to say goodbye once I actually see him. Sigh, I just can't shake him. I have never, ever met another man or woman who makes me feel this way. I don't like it. Especially when he claims to feel the same way but purs his sense of obligation/duty above his own happiness and emotions. Which means he puts them above mine as well.
I just read that line in your journal about keeping things light now. Sorry if I am bringing up stuff you don't want to talk about. Feel free to delete or ignore if you need to.
I agree with you about women. In general I find them much more attractive. I am drawn to them more. But I never have the same emotional connection with them that I do with some men. I never fall in love with them. I wish I did. I think they are easier to deal with than men.
[Edited on Mar 03, 2005 4:47PM]