one_pure_thought

I think now that I will be having more time the prospect of girls and girlfriends is getting increasingly evident.

I know that girls aren't going to be pining after me for my looks, which is something that I can understand, but honestly i think there is enouch of me to make up for it in other areas. So really I think the main reason why I haven't got a girlfriend is because I just don't know how to play the game. That's the problem with this whole situation, I don't know where to start.

I mean my love interests have always lead me down a twisted and terrible path of unreciprocal feelings on one end or another. I just wish I could feel for someone and they could feel about me. This sort of thing has been so arare a find that I think I might be someone who only is attracted to the unnattainable. Bottom line, it's stupid of me to think that it's my unnattractiveness that's kept me from getting a girlfriend. I know A LOT of guys that have had more relations ships than me but really just haven't had a quarter of what i bring to the table.


I think the biggest reasons why it hasn't worked out is because I naturally show a defensivness towards relationships so thus people don't think i'm interested. And the other being that I simply have a problem relating to people. I mean, maybe i'm just full of shit, but i see a lot of detrumental qualities in the people surrounding me; to the point where i don't see any form of compatability happening.

Maybe I'm picky.
Maybe I want to fall and love and get laid.

I don't feel comfortable damnit. It's been too damn long for a shmuck like me to not have figured out why he hasn't had a relationship in a LONG while.