Damn it. Fucking damn it.....
So I go to a Halloween party Saturday night. Not expecting much other that some the same old crowd drinking themselves stupid yada yada yada.
Not wanting to go, I do anyways. Just to get out of the house and see if there are any single ladies out.
What I did find was a lot of old memories. I hear a voice say my name minutes after I show. Not just anyvoice mind u.
Some girl says my name like it was full of history, and emotions. I turn to see my middle school ex standing there looking me up and down. She's wearing a nurses outfit shorter than short. So fucking hot!!
It's the end of the night and we've been talking just about the entire time. I know this look in her eyes. The way she touches me as she walks off to mingle a little. Damn...it was like meeting this girl for the first time, but we had history. Bad history at that. She cheated on me with my best friend in middle school and now. And now she's standing here talking to me looking all good n hot in her nurses costume with a hint of wanting look in those brown eyes.
I get her number and tell her we'll hang out before she goes back home. What was I thinking????? I have more to come.....
So I go to a Halloween party Saturday night. Not expecting much other that some the same old crowd drinking themselves stupid yada yada yada.
Not wanting to go, I do anyways. Just to get out of the house and see if there are any single ladies out.
What I did find was a lot of old memories. I hear a voice say my name minutes after I show. Not just anyvoice mind u.
Some girl says my name like it was full of history, and emotions. I turn to see my middle school ex standing there looking me up and down. She's wearing a nurses outfit shorter than short. So fucking hot!!
It's the end of the night and we've been talking just about the entire time. I know this look in her eyes. The way she touches me as she walks off to mingle a little. Damn...it was like meeting this girl for the first time, but we had history. Bad history at that. She cheated on me with my best friend in middle school and now. And now she's standing here talking to me looking all good n hot in her nurses costume with a hint of wanting look in those brown eyes.
I get her number and tell her we'll hang out before she goes back home. What was I thinking????? I have more to come.....
So far I've meet a painful memory, aka my middle school ex, at a Halloween party and got her number, and apparently her attention.
So it doesn't work out that we hang Sunday but she did want to chill Monday. Called me just as I was leaving work so.... sweet!! this'll work out great. Got home took a shower and went to pick her up at her moms. What the hell am I doing??? I should have some ill feelings for this chick. She did fuck around with my best friend.
Pick her up and we go get a few drinks. Great idea huh. We talk and catch up more. A little more sober and aware than at the party were we meet again after 16 years of life. I talk her into coming over to hang out and smoke sum pot. I'm wondering this whole time about what feelings I have now for this woman. Like I said I should be mad or upset about what she did to my best friend and I in middle school.
The real kicker is that I know this girl has been in some shady situations in life. Drugs, partying, promiscuity ect. Who am I to judge? I've been in some if not most of the places she has been other than the sleeping around thing. I don't do one night stands. Only sleep with girls I've been with for a while and really have feelings for. Apparently she was a lot more open.
So I've got this girl all over me yet holding herself back because she says she is trying her damnedest to stay true and not cheat on a guy who asked her to be exclusive. I hold out and respect what she's trying to do. I'm an idiot. Should have and could have taken her right then right there. She later said that she almost jumped my bones and wouldn't have stopped me if I took her. I don't know what to think at this time. Her sister comes over and picks her up to stay at her house that night.
Lots to think about....