Life's a funny thing. You can go for so long, living day to day, your mind at piece.
Then one day, out of the blue everything I see will remind me of the things I have lost. Maybe it is something somebody says, or the way they say it. Everything I see will in someway remind me of it. I'll be watching a movie, or a program on tv and in everything I watch someone is either sick, has cancer or talks about someone who died of cancer.
Everything just builds up throughout the day and makes it a very emotionally exhausting day. I don't show much on the outside but inside there is just that ache.
Last night into today has been one of those times.
someone's journal the other day inspired me to do this. so today I am dedicating this entry to my mother.
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My mother was a loving, caring and selfless person. She would do most anything for the ones she loved. Even in her own time of need, she used what strength she had to do things for others. She was one of those people who had no enemies, anyone who met her was taken in by her charm. She was a very protective but also understanding person. It has been 2 years since she passed away but her pressence is still within so many people. Most of the time I can't talk to someone I know without her coming up in conversation whether it be someone I haven't seen for a while or someone I would see everyday.
I think that is why I often have these days, she was just one of those people that are hard to let go of.
Then one day, out of the blue everything I see will remind me of the things I have lost. Maybe it is something somebody says, or the way they say it. Everything I see will in someway remind me of it. I'll be watching a movie, or a program on tv and in everything I watch someone is either sick, has cancer or talks about someone who died of cancer.
Everything just builds up throughout the day and makes it a very emotionally exhausting day. I don't show much on the outside but inside there is just that ache.
Last night into today has been one of those times.
someone's journal the other day inspired me to do this. so today I am dedicating this entry to my mother.
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My mother was a loving, caring and selfless person. She would do most anything for the ones she loved. Even in her own time of need, she used what strength she had to do things for others. She was one of those people who had no enemies, anyone who met her was taken in by her charm. She was a very protective but also understanding person. It has been 2 years since she passed away but her pressence is still within so many people. Most of the time I can't talk to someone I know without her coming up in conversation whether it be someone I haven't seen for a while or someone I would see everyday.
I think that is why I often have these days, she was just one of those people that are hard to let go of.
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thepromdate:
you know...it took me a while to come around too. i finally feel like i can be myself. not that i couldn't before, i just felt unsure around all these new people. but everyone's super great. sgsf really fucking rocks. and i've met some really great people because of it. awww..i love sgsf.
ophelia:
The more you say about your mom, the more she sounds like she really was a wonderful person. *hug*