i need change... but i do think that this weather can kill us all, it makes me want to just stay in my room, under my blankets and never leave

The ends of friendships are always hard but sometimes they need to happen. That always makes me sad too. Now I find that I have a problem letting people in and even the people I do let in a keep at a distance in one form or another. As soon as anyones makes me feel vulnerable or like they could hurt me I detach and put my guards up.

Such a horrible way to be.

yes it is!
its pretty to fall asleep while watching movies.

Sorry to hear you're feeling down although it's nice to have friends ready with mj and booze though! I always look fwd to change. Why'd you end your friendship if you care for him/her? What's your fantasy?
I like your anime pic of the nurse. I lived in J for 1 1/2 yrs...very surreal.
Yup...resp secrections...I had everyone from 2yrs to 42 yrs old cough on me today. Usually just as I leaned fwd to listen to their chests. Nice.
How'd you get on to ICU while still a student!!?? Or are you a post-grad RN? I want to take the ICU course. I wouldn't mind going half time and working in ICU/Emerg on my time out.
You should go for your NP or come up north (except there's alot of snow). I'm going to challenge the exam. I've not done the NP programme but I've done the Outpost course (caught a few neonates) and I function in an expanded scope of practice. I love it.
You're allowed to ask... I'm going overseas (I'm in the military too) in Aug. I'm rather excited...it'll be quite the change.

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Mmmmm...beeer! Sigh. You've no idea just how jealous I am. I'm on a dry reserve...NO BOOZE! I'm going to so enjoy a drink this weekend.
Don't apologise for the lengthy post...there's bugger all to do up here so lots to read is a good thing!
Sorry to hear 'bout the non-friendship. Sucks eh? Ridding yourself of excess baggage is a good thing though...lighter travelling.
The simple fantasies are often the best. Good luck in fulfilling it. You like spooning?
That's pretty cool you're getting into ICU so soon. Nice to feel wanted and have people request that you come and work for them eh? It was a nice change after my first degree (English).
Trachs are gross but I find body fluids don't bother me so much. I've even managed to step in a bed-pan...it was full at the time...and then worked an 8 hr shift...D'oh.
Careful 'bout coming up north if you're worried about burn-out...Northern nurses have higher stress lvls than ICU nurses.
Yeah, I've heard the exam is hard but what the hell. Expanded scope means that I can assess, Dx, Tx and Rx from a formulary. No calling the doc @ 4 AM for a Tylenol order.
Cheers.

thanks

That comment helped ... going through something similar right now ... hope you're doing well

*hugs*

I'm slowly getting fed up with being so nice ... it's getting annoying lol

*removes nice guy patch ... replaces it with not - so - nice guy patch*

I'm working my way up to the asshole patch

I meant it like the Scouts ... lol ... I got my nice guy patch ... working on my asshole one ...

Let's see (looks at sash) ... beer drinking patch, nicotene patch, sometimes a pot smoking patch, class clown patch, semi - cute guy patch (I'm working my way towards the cute patch - I'll get there someday)

Laptop is back up and running ... no clue what happened earlier .,, thanks for the chat ... hope you feel better soon

nepean point at sunrise.....hasn't happened yet, but a boy can dream.

damn, are you on the waiting list for prom? i'm sure people will cancel

and don't tease me with making out offers, i'll come and track you down!

What are you laughing about?

I decided to look at your pics today and I couldn't stop laughing at the emu pic, it's awesome!!!
How was shopping yesterday? It doesn't sound like you had a good day. Cheer up babe!!! Springtime is coming soon, and it will be time for new and exciting things. Like enjoying smoking pot outside again

oh and I like your new profile pic, grrrrrrrr

New profile pic... very sexy.

Whoa to the new photo!

As for Nepean point it's downtown behind the art gallery. It's my most favourite place in the city, I can be foudn there writing and just thinking pretty often.

You're right, this weather totally blows. I hate that the weather seems to control my mood. I'll be at home and all happy and not even look outside, but then I walk to work and by the time I get there I'm the meanest fucker you've ever met. Damn coldness...damn snow.

whoa like HOT DIGITY DAMN whoa.

LOVE the new pic

Rosalyn and I are taking the bus to prom together, i don't know of anyone else from here going though

lemme see whats up with my current date first to see if she cancels, if not sure you can be my +1