nogodsnomanagers

public service announcement... the cunts at h*tmail (we don't want to endorse anyone else's products do we now) have deleted my account, and all the vitally important fluff containing emails i was saving for a rainy day, due to not paying it enough attention, so if you wanna reach me poisonally you gots ta use the thingy on here to get to my new one
hopefully i will continue to be able to sneak on other people's computers to check it now and again

hey, how the fuck are you? things could be worse at this end it's true, haven't seen much of any other human beings except my boy but really i'd rather he left me alone because he gets frustrated with the mystery misery and that doesn't help my hating myself and feeling like my head is going to implode and all i'll be able to do for the rest of my life is sit in the corner and blub like a fucking infant

obviously i can see that there isn't really anything wrong, but when every waking moment is overwhelmingly confusing and quite painful and yet you can't explain it to anyone or snap yourself out even though you know it's irrational and plain stupid....... well it's not nice
hey, this sounds familiar
SHUT UP

ok, sorry

right. let's talk about something banal. i've dyed my hair black and only have half a dread left. it was halloween and i had to be a white trash frankenstein's bride, which was fun. except that i missed my two best manchester girls playing their misfits covers because i was caught in a fight by the door and in chat with an amiable scouser. but i did get to see their singers dick when his girlfriend ordered him to show me. and later when he pissed in a pumpkin....
what else..... my boy had the very successful, first of many hip hop and reggae nights and made a bit of cash which assured us quality video rentals for a while (i'm rapidly running out of things to watch, the local vid biz is poop)
i've been reading non stop, which i love, and avoiding work, so pretty much things continue as usual

the weather makes me so unhappy, i think one day i'm going to move somewhere balmy, let's see if that gets rid of this perpetual illness

that's all i have the energy for right now. i bet your thinking that was worth the effort to read
sneeze. hacking cough. phlegm. kiss

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