niobe

I hate being poor. I really want to go back to school, but two things have to happen first. I have to win the lottery and I have to get a new job. I still haven't heard a damn word on the job I interviewed for last week. If I did get that job I would also get a 5 cent raise, which isn't a whole lot, but it adds up. I am so pumped to go back to school, but I guess it just isn't going to happen right now. I don't want to sit around and feel sorry for myself, although I say that and that's pretty much what I am doing. A lot of choices that I made when I was younger seemed like the right ones and right now I am pretty much finding out that perhaps they weren't. But when I was younger I didn't really know what my options were or what I wanted to do and now that I have come to a realization of what I want to do, I can't do it.

I really hate stressing about money. I am sick of crying every time I get a bill in the mail. I am tired of eating popcorn for dinner because I can't fucking afford groceries. Yes, last night I did make a very nice meal, but it might be the last nice meal for awhile. I don't like living this way. Yet, I don't know how not to live this way.

I can feel myself getting into another one of those moods or whatever and here I thought this month was going to be so good. Maybe next month things will finally get better.

I hope that you have a really great, long and relaxing weekend.

FRIEND OF THE DAY:
EvanX! This boy has great taste in music. He likes to brag about his new TV, but he has every right to. Hell I know I would. This guy lives close enough that I might actually get to meet him someday and I think it would be pretty cool if we did. Plus, he has a really cute girlfriend I wouldn't mind meeting. Go say hello to this music lover if you don't know him.



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