nightcreeper

last night. my dreams began to come true. and on my way home from work i couldnt beleive how blessed i am to beable to pursuit my dreams. that everything always comes together for me. everyday my life is awesome and i am awesome and so are my ideas and what i want for myself. my friends are amazing. but one problem. it seems like the people around me are dieing. they hate their life in complete utter failure. they are miserable and cant stand another day of suffering. and as i watch them suffer they lash out at me. i take blows to the face from them. i see their pain and blood and they yell at me because i cant do anything but watch.

last night me and my sister who is 16 got kicked out of the house because my mom lost her job. my mom is goin deaf and blind. there is nothing that we can do. but she blamed us. because we couldnt help her that day. im here at a friends house. its the first time my sister has ever been kicked out. and thank god im w her and know what to do. i lived out in tx by myself to know what to do when im out on the streets. shes sleeping in a room and bed shes not familiar w. unfortuanately shes goin through the things that i had to go through during my parents devorce. she'll b alright. we all will.

i cant wait. i found a photographer yesterday and i was suppost to do a photoshoot yesterday but i came home to find my mom upset at my sister and i. ill have to post pone everythngs but i woke up this morning to an email from the photographer. im on the way to an exciting life.