I can't even express the pain I feel right now. I have always been the "bigger" girl...i tried to explain to him that this is the way im built, I will always have big boobs, big hips and a big butt...im fucking ukrainian and we were made for eating perogies and having babies. Anyway, out of the blue he implies im fat. Well thats what he implies, but then implies that im attractive, but could look better. Spread a little of that on top of my bad mood and we don't have a happy camper. I seriously don't know if he was being sincere in his suggestion and just didnt know how to say it, or if he really thinks im fat. Now I am even more self conscious about myself, is he embarassed when he goes out with me? Does he compare me to other girls? I just don't know what to do with myself anymore. I have no one. The one person I thought I had...and I don't even know if I have him anymore. Right now I want to run away, keep running and never ever turn back.
I wonder what it feels like.
I wonder what it feels like.
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You are a beautiful girl and if anyone is embarassed to go out with you it's because people won't believe he could've gotten so lucky. You are NOT fat. Faaaaaar from it. So give yourself a nice pinch on that hot ass, and tell him if he can't appreciate your intellect, your passion and your gorgeous bod, he can easily be replaced.
Luv ya Jenn
P.S. Woah! I just looked in your candids. Christ, y'almost gave me a heart attack. Even further proof that you are drop dead gorgeous!
[Edited on Apr 15, 2004 7:28PM]